Poems

This page will contain original poems and short stories by Jim Poitras. Check back often for new pieces! In the past number of years,I discovered my deep passion for the written word…My words are not only for me but for you…the people…I owe two people gratitude for the fire that burns inside of me…John Lennon and Leonard Cohen,my two hero`s who inspired me to become a poet and writer.When and if ever the time comes,I will pay tribute to them,when I read my work,in public…All My Relations…As of 2017,I will be keeping my work private,for future publishing…All content on this page is copyrighted by Jim Poitras

 

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I dedicate this to all children,man or woman who understand…

” Family Secrets….”

Many hide behind the smiles,trying to act different,
Hidden secrets,lost within shadows,no difference…

Who to trust,when those who hurt you,you trusted,
So unexpected,betrayal at it`s worst,so dismantled…

A childhood lost forever,distroyed,without memory,
The inner child,within the adult,that no one can see…

Far too many,do live a life of lies,of family secrets,
Too ashamed and full of guilt and denial,of regrets…

None of us are alone,is so,we all must understand,
A chance to heal the past,this we all must demand…

Some secrets are meant to be a secret,in the dark,
Too bazzare and painfull,they all made thier mark…

Many families hold many secrets,a form of control,
Abused innocent childhood,sexual,physical,mental…

So many lies,untold truths,are the ultimate deception,
The past haunts,but we try to forgive,is a exception…

What is true,what is not,secrets,only we know within,
Now hear your voice clear,so the healing can begin…

Untold family secrets…

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“When we were young…”

Life seemed easy,when we were young,
Anything was possiable,was number one…

Our bodies,young and youthful,feeling solid,
And dreams were possiable,we believed it…

Our cares were free,least what we thought,
When love was real,in our minds,not forgot…

Life seemed to last forever,or so it seemed,
Alone or together,all could live our dreams…

Now we realize,all we have,is our memories,
A gift of life,to reflect,appreciate,you and me…

See the beauty,of what was,never to forget,
Live life to the fullest,mostly,without regret…

When we were young…

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” Second by second…”

I have opened my eyes,mind,just in time,
Wasted so much time,realized what is mine…

Life and love,was right in front of my eyes,
I was only blind,only letting life running by…

Not what is in a life time,or in the sublime,
But second by second,no reason or rhyme…

Age is more than a state of mind,it counts,
Lessons learnt,mistakes made,to recount…

To realize,that life itself,is a wonderful gift,
Hard work,dedication,self belief,it consist…

So appreciate,each second,each moment,
So take it easy,and reflect,reach fulfillment…

Second by second,what really is important,
Deep within your heart and soul,be content…

Second by second…

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“A very thin line…”

What is reality,is it illusional or like schizophrenia,
A sound mine no more,as altimers and dementia…

What is real or not,delusion or just wishful thought,
Is it our`s to own or cherrish,is it all we really got…

A very thin line between intelligent and ignorance,
From being humble,to being intollerant,for instance…

What is true love,is it real,the million dollar question,
When two souls meet and know,feeling the passion…

Who are we to judge,to pass condemnation,also fear,
We who are no better,no worse,to what we hold dear…

A very thin line indeed,life is to be enjoyed discreetly,
To learn from our mistakes.always learn compleletly…

To think we know everything,is a very huge mistake,
How little we know,ignorance is no excuse,we make…

When one looks into the mirror,see the true refection,
To read between the lines of truth,not of deception…

Respect gets respect,love begits love,is all I do know,
To try my very best,see a very thin line,for me to grow…

A very thin line…

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An old indian song…

“My hair is getting long agian…”

Oh how I cried,when it was cut short,such pain,
Saw my reffection in the window,as I walked by,
My heart is happy,my hair is getting long agian…

WWwwwwwaaAAaaaWWWWaaaWWaaaaaaa
OOOoooOOOoooooOOOOOOOOoooooooooo

All I remember is,not too much please,just a trim,
The tears rolled down my face,almost like a river,
Just like a woman,love my long hair,where to begin…

WWWwwwwWwAAAaaaAAAAaaaAAAAaaaaa
OOOOOOOoooooOOOOOooooOOOOOooooo

My hair is getting long agian,to the pow-wow trail,
Tee-pee creeping time agian,how my heart sings,
My hair is getting long agian,now I`m not so frail…

WWWWwwwwwAAAAaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
OOOoooooooOOOOOooooOOOOOOOOoooOO

In between a inside joke and
a modern native sad blues song…

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” Little did I know…”

The first time,that I really opened my eyes,
,In a second,saw just how little I did know,
To appreciate life,or it would pass me by…

Not to take for granted anymore or regret,
The positive,not the negative,to hold dear,
What matter most to me,and never to forget…

That everything can change forever,quickly,
Gone forever,not having saying,how I felt,
To live with regret,understanding so clearly…

To follow my dreams,take that leap of faith,
Not to looking back,wishing that I would of,
Should of,and realizing,life was not a waste…

Little did I know,how little I really knew,is so,
Learning to be humble and be truely grateful,
To have open eyes,heart and mind,to grow…

To be able to love and to except love back,
And live in the moment,for the unexpected,
To appreciate and to hold onto,and to react…

To believe,in my own way,have a foundation,
Staying clear and not afraid,of the unknown,
A higher power,spirit full of love and passion…

Little did I know…

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When I find the right publisher,my first book of poems will be called; “Words of Love…”

” Talk softly to me…”

I`m willing to listen to you dear,you will see,
Most important is my darling,talk softly to me…

Because I love you so my dear,this is clear,
What you think and feel,means alot my dear…

So talk softly to me…

You know me well,as a man,my spirit,is strong,
But also very tender and kind,it can`t be wrong…

Always there for you,no matter what,it is true,
Remember darling,my love is real,just for you…

So talk to me softly…

Dreams do come true,maybe now you can see,
Together forever,the journey of love,you and me…

Sharing our hopes and our dreams,what can be,
All you need to know is,your heart is safe with me…

So talk softly to me…

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” No control…”

We really have no control in life,we only can manage,
To do our best,be true to our hearts,to take advantage…

Life can be taken away,in the blink of a eye.this is true,
So live life to the fullest,responsibilities,for me and you…

When we say,I love you,mean it,stay true to your word,
Try your very best,be kind,compassionate,not blurred…

We really do not have control,not really,in reality is so,
So enjoy and not forget,your promise,this is all I know…

Give someone a hug,even a stranger,you`ll not regret,
This act of kindness,changes life forever,less we forget…

All My Relations…

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” Spirit Walkers…”

They have been here,since the begining of time,
To love the people,to teach old ways,so sublime…

They travel all over the land,to meet the people,
To share the teachings of the past,when ever able…

They share their compassion,love,no boundaries,
To sit with the people,children,to share the stories…

They come in all forms,Spirit Walkers are forever,
To always be there,the past,present and the future…

Spirit Walkers…

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” Buffalo Spirit…”

The buffalo spirit is powerful.and it still lives on,
Threw dance,cereimony,healing traditional song…

Is sacred to the people,for thousands of years,
It carry`s the strength and power,heals the tears…

I still see thier spirits,wandering all over the land,
It lives within me forever,my guide I understand…

The White Buffalo,has come,to heal the people,
The buffalo spirit lives on,the healing is possiable…

All My Relations…

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“Are two different things…”

Talking spiritual and being spiritual,are two different things,
To be humble,honest,respectful,compassionate,love brings…

The light,no longer the dark,an inner calmness,the reward,
To do ones best,no matter what,walking in the light,towards…

Saying you are in love and being in love,the heart will sing,
A healthy way of life,togetherness and joy,love does bring…

Family is family,blood is blood,sometimes reality is blind,
Count your blessing,to have or not,the past lefted behind…

To live or to enjoy life,are two different things,is our choice,
Mine is to appreciate,what I have or not,but only to rejoice…

To have faith,to live it´s true meaning,this is my decition,
Happy I do have faith,see the bigger picture,see the vision…

Is enough for me…

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” Forever…”

I have searched and wondered,forever always looked,
What forever means to me,never giving up,all it took…

What I have found out,so far in the end,is my decition,
Through mistakes made,dreams realized,inner passion…

Love has been a journey,many lessons learnt,to see,
But in the end,satisfied that I have tried my best,for me…

I like to think that friendship is the key,to everything,
Passion,tenderness,compassion,that real love brings…

Health is number one too,mental and physical,it is so,
To appreciate all that life does bring,so we can grow…

So I will continue to dream my dreams,this is forever,
Never give up,no such word as no,always enjoy forever…

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I understand the journey of life but…in the past year or so,I have lost far too many love ones,friends,people who I admired threwout my life…

” Remember…”

Remember to say,I love you
Before it is too late
Remember,that you appreciate
Before it is too late…

Remind your mate,family member
Before it is too late
Don`t live with regret or hesitate
Before it is too late…

Remember,to be kind to others
Before it is too late
No excuse,do not under estimate
Before it is too late…

Remember…

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Yesterday,I was sadden to hear of the passing of a dear artist friend,Sergey Parenuk.A great artist from Russia and a even better sweet friend…

” Love is love…”

Love comes in many forms and levels,for sure,
Friendship,relationship and more,it is so pure…

Love of music,love of art,nature,so many ways,
Like the Beatles song,all we need is love,I say…

Love is love,love of life,all that it can bring,is so,
The burning fire inside,full of passion,how it goes…

Love of food,culture,all the colors of the rainbow,
We love and respect each other,in reality,I know…

Love of laughter,love of a new day,compassion,
So thankyou dear friend,such sweet memories,
You were loved…

Dedicated to my brother in arms…RIP Sergey…

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“For me…”

For me,love is more powerful than hate,
Love is beauitful,more with a good mate…

For me,positive is stronger,than negative,
Love energy it heals all,what is relative…

For me,the unknown excites me,it is so,
Learning by mistakes,only helps to grow…

For me,the color of ones skin,or belief,
Matters not,good is good,never deceive…

For me,not for me to judge,but to except,
To be kind,open minded,love one to protect…

For me,is to enjoy each moment,second,
To enjoy my mate,friend,every moment…

For me,to pray every morning,be grateful,
Humble,to appreciate,life is so wonderful…

For me…

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Traditional prayer…

“When it is my time…”

The elders taught me,many things
To learn,to grow,see what life brings…

To show respect,to be humble,to deal
With the past,ancestors and to heal…

That Golden Age time,is much better
Appreciate,Mother Earth,our mother…

To love our children,they are our future
To show others,they matter,and nature…

I am on my Golden Age journey,so sweet
Perpareing,for when it is my time,to meet…

The creator and the ancestors,that I love
To go to the spirit world,far away above…

When it is my time 

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” I´ve done my time…”

I`m enjoying the beauty,many years have pasted,
I`ve done my time,survived my mistakes,at last…

I´ve done my time,
No reason or rhime,
I´ve done my time…

I`ve lefted the past in the past,looking to tomorrow,
I`m happy at last,gratefull of life,not living in sorrow…

I´ve done my time,
No reason or rhime,
I´ve done my time…

I´m no longer alone,or live with fear,love found me,
I´ve done my time,learnt lessons of life,it had to be…

I´ve done my time,
No reason or rhime,
I`ve done my time…

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I am looking for a publisher to publish books of my love poems.I enjoy writing them,it allows me to express what is deep inside and for the enjoyment for others…

” Close your eyes…”

Close your eyes and make a wish
I promise to seal it,gently with a kiss…

Feel my arm,holding you,please feel me 
Shielding you,loving you,can you see…

Close your eyes,dream your dreams
A future,together forever,so it seems…

I will catch each tear drop,not to worry
True love is never having,to say sorry…

Close your eyes,my darling,if you dare
To imagine,to feel my love,how I care…

Always there for you,never saying goodby
So my darling,it`s alright,close your eyes…

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I often talk about my street days and even then,some forget…it was my university of life…

” Lonely Street Blues…”

Walking to no where,I got the lonely street blues,
Feeling so hungry,where to sleep,what I am to do…

I feel so alone,that no one cares or even loves me,
But not feeling sorry for myself,it just is my reality…

Meeting so many people,just like me,searching too,
One thing in commen,all got the lonely street blues…

So many broken people,broken families,is so sad,
Lost in motion,lost in space,thinking of going mad…

Bright lights,late at night,the sounds of the street,
So many different reasons and stories,I do meet…

Deep within,we sing within,the lonely street blues,
Dreaming of tomorrow,to have a home,to belong too…

Kindered spirits,who understand,what it really takes,
Strenght,courage,to have better life,I do try to make…

Took time,harded work too,but did get off the street,
Only memories,of the lonely street blues,so discreet…

But not all was bad,had alot of fun too,with passion,
I smile inside,the people I did meet,and satisfaction…

Some of the sweetest,the kindest people,I ever met,
Who understood,related,no judgement,with no regret…

So now,I sing the lonely street blues,feel good inside,
Education,sweet memories,no longer do I try to hide…

Lonely Street Blues…

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” What I know…”

What I know,is honesty is much better than deceit,
Look into the mirror,see the refection,inside so deep…

What I know,friendship for me,by far is number one,
There is more compassion,to realize,the past is gone…

What I know,love does not the pay the bills,last forever,
Forgiveness,commitment and loyality,need to discover…

What I know,dreams are for dreamers,full of passion,
To work together as one,to find the commen direction…

What I know,to have open heart,open eyes,open mind,
To live each day,if it were the last,as meant by design…

What I know,is to have belief,a pure spiritual foundation,
Non judgemental,to be kind,to understand appreciation…

What I know,is time goes far faster,more than I thought,
So don`t take for granted,life is a gift,never have I forgot…

What I know…

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” You`ll never know…”

You`ll never know,if you do not try,
Have no regrets,have not to ask why…

Taking that leap of faith,the unknown,
Finding the answers,without knowing…

You`ll never know,if you never do ask,
The questions,what is behind the mask…

Who really are for real or who are a fake,
Loyal friendships,relationships,we make…

You`ll never know,true love,take the leap,
Find your inner happiness,in all you seek…

Searching for,find what makes you happy,
Together or alone,content as you can be…

You´ll never know,if you never do believe,
Faith is key,commitment of life,just to be…

It is your personal decition,time to decide,
No more fear,anger or regret,do not hide…

So enjoy…

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” Just a thought…”

It really is sad,how people judge each other,
Becarefull,never judge a book,by it`s cover…

I have often wondered,why it has to be,this way,
They have no idea,how it hurts,what they say…

Size,age,color,faith,rich or poor,does not matter,
They have a heart of gold,kind,full of laughter…

I have met so many sweet people,of all kinds,
The best people to me,true friends,in my mind…

I am happy so gratefull,I do not think in that way,
Never judge,only except,is my truth,is what I say…

So love your brothers and sisters,we all belong,
Why I can say,always remember I care,be strong…

Just a thought…

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” Turning the page…”

Life is the book of knowledge,turning the page,
Chapter after chapter in life,truth comes with age…

Knowing when to walk away,and when to stay,
Learning the lessons of life,all of us have to pay…

Take what you want to take,leave what`s to leave,
And hold onto dearly,inner peace,what we believe…

To be gratefull for a new sun rise,our good health,
Friendship and love is key,to understand oneself…

Be sure not to cheat yourself,or who you respect,
Cherrish each second,believe,know how to protect…

Fly high with the eagle,be free,live your own reality,
Just turning another page,learning what it is to be…

Turning the page…

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I had to…

” Your name was Raime…”

My heart is broken,it is so,grief now lives with me,
You pasted,without me knowing,sad it had to be…

You were my greatgrandson,sorry we never met,
But you were my blood,family,this I will never forget…

We will meet one day,on the other side,this will be,
I`m your great grandfather,your name was Raime…

                                                                            

 

 

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” Spirit to spirit…”

No words can discribe or explain the connection,of spirit to spirit,
We know when it happens,is like magic,and we never do forget…

It can happen,when we fall in love,or express our feelings inside,
Threw prayer or the sacred pipe,inner circle dancing,notling to hide…

One can see it,in the eyes,or a tender touch,to live without regret,
The spiritual bond takes place,natural law happens,spirit to spirit…

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” Lefted me in the dark shadows…”

I did not see it coming,it was a huge surprise,
You lefted me in the dark shadows,of your eyes…

Strange when I think about it,I often wonder why,
Alone late at night,all by myself,sad tears,silent cry…

I try to feel the memories,there are none to be had,
Only wishfull thinking,wondering,that makes me sad…

You lefted me in the dark shadows,shadows of time,
An empty feeling,realize that notling really,is mine…

Still for a strange reason,that I can`t denie,my dear,
I am gratefull we met,spent time,together so near…

You taught me so much,explore corners,of my heart,
To expect the unexpected,from the end to the start…

You lefted me in the dark shadows,of my own mind,
Enjoying the unexpected,reality is so very siblime…

I miss you,I miss it…?

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” Before it is too late…”

Many take life for granted,with people that are there
Remember before it is too late,remind that you care…

Life can be taken away,in a second,one never knows
Cancer,heart attack,suicide,accident,old age,it is so…

Words unspoken,promises not kept,filled with regret
So remember,live without regret,before it is too late…

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” Skid road blues…”

Never have I ever forgot,nor do I want to
On the streets,living the skid road blues…

Not knowing at night,where I was to sleep
Wandering the streets,what was I to eat…

A gathering place,for those who are lost
And forgotten,rejected,at such a high cost…

Feeling safer here,rather than than there
Not knowing,what abuse comes,or where…

Did not grow up,in a glass house,so clear
My childhood stolen,and all who were dear…

Watching off the streets,the games played
Full of lies and hate,empty words,anyways…

So,I sing the skid road blues,not to forget
Reality over bullshit,never to live with regret…

To say that you believe and it is a lie,oh my
Who really sick in the mind,time passes by…

Lost many friends,people with a good heart
We understood each other,together not apart…

The skid road blues made me,who I am today
Made me a stronger person,full of courage…

So I have to remember,where I came from
My training grounds,so very foreign to some…

Only those who have been there,can relate
That I sing about of celebration,not of hate…

The skid road blues…

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” Goodby my sweet friend…”

In my silence,missing you by my side,
The sence of loss,is there,I can`t hide…

You brought light,when times were dark,
Words of love,of sadness,filled my heart…

Goodby my sweet friend,I do love you,
Sweet memories of you,is what you do…

Miss our laughter,I miss our tears,too,
Goodby my sweet friend,I do love you…

Wait for me,I will follow you,time endless,
Flying high,together forever,I do confess…

Thankyou for the memories,compassion,
In remembrance,goodby my sweet friend…

Till we meet agian..

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” I Believe in…”

I believe in,that the world can be,a better place
Where we are all equal,notling goes to waste…

I believe in,at least to give people,another chance
Fairness and compassion,not to offer resistance…

I believe in,that I have earned my inner happiness
That I appreciate everything in life,was my test…

I believe in, passion from deep within,to explore
To have passionate erotic lust and even more…

I believe in,forgiveness and love,I reconmend
We all recieve,what we give out,or do intend…

I believe in,that friendship is key,in a relationship
Allowing total freedom,always willing to except…

I believe in,tomorrow,the beauty of a new sun
That dreams come true,for me and everyone…

I believe in,that I am worth it,given the chance
In friendships,family,or together in romance…

I believe in,yesterday is yesterday,is in the past
Tomorrow is what ever I decide,forever to last…

I believe in,human nature,positive not negative
Working together,making change,is how I live…

I believe in,that no one or that life is ever perfect
Imperfection is normal.all depends how we react…

I believe in,I am love,I learnt most of my lessons
Making mistakes and to be a better person…

I believe in,who I am,have courage and wisdom
To live my passion and dreams,is number one…

I believe in you,as you do me,I believe in loyality
In spirit and reality,it was worth it,it was destiny…

I believe in,love and relationship,on any level
Freedom of expression,always willing and able…

I believe,in,live with my decitions,to each thier own
To love,except me or not,to live with thier decition…

I believe in,to always be open minded,always kind
To have belief,never in fear,to keep a open mind…

I believe…

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” Follow your spirit…”

Follow your spirit,your soul,not your head…
You`ll find all what you need,peace,instead…

Spirit is spirit,natural law,found not in a book,
Go deep inside,heal the scars,go and look…

Do not live in fear,anymore,but in pure love,
Look to the stars,the great creator far above…

Be kind,be gentle to others,but in mostly you,
Find that inner peace,inner joy,this you must do…

Enjoy each day,every second,that life does give,
Follow your spirit,your decition,your right to live…

Follow your spirit…

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” My spirit goes home…”

When I feel homesick,I listen to the drum,
My spirit goes home always,number one…

There are two side of the coin,I`m far away,
But my spirit goes home,to the land,today…

I dance to my ancestors,in my soul,it is so,
Letting them realize,that I`m safe,all I know…

A tear of joy,runs down my face,memories,
Of those who died,so long ago,our families…

I dance in the circle of life,the pow-wow trail,
Healing mother earth,the people,without fail…

When I miss home,I love,my spirit goes home,
Now I know,in my heart,to know I am not alone…

Hear the heart beat of mother earth,it lives on,
Dancing to the drum,singing,a beautifull song…

My spirit goes home…

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” Just for the love of it…”

My reality is this,I do it just for the love of it
Many do not understand me,with no regret…

I followed my inner passions,no matter what
Succeeded with most,never this,have I forgot…

Lived my dreams,what was deep in my heart
Only just for me to answer,right from the start…

So very simple as a new day,come what may
To paying attention,being free,each new day…

Just trying to have a good heart,being kind
Being respectfull,never crossing others line…

To have a open mind,if I do not understand
Not for me to judge,nor is for me to demand…

To love and to be loved back,so very siblime
No exceptions,never to forget,within my mind…

For me it works the best,just for the love of it
Till my last breath,made promise,not to forget…

Just for the love of it…

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When…I find the right publisher or they find me…I have saved dozens of my poems.My first book of poems I will call…” Words of Love…”.Here is an example;

” All I want…”

All I want before I sleep,is a sweet kiss,good night
A warm embrace,so full of affection,if you might…

To wake up in the morning,in the very same way
A smile,the twinkle in your eyes,to begin my day…

I want is,to part of your world,for us both to share
To let you know with my kiss,how much I do care…

All I want is just to be your lover and best friend
That I will always will be there for you,in the end…

Tenderness and appreciation,to show how I feel
Respect or kindness,share my love is how I seal…

Past is past,today is today,tomorrow is another day
Words unspoken,appreciation,proof what we do say…

All I want,I already have,why should I ask for more
My best friend,my lover,you`re the person I adore…

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” Time…”

Seems just like yesterday,how time flys,
The beauty of youth,just passed us by…

Thought we knew all,could do no wrong,
Take things for granted,time didn`t belong…

As time past us by,the mind stayed young,
Before we knew it,lost all,before we begun…

Grey hair,wrinkled skin,not so much energy,
Our hearts still full of life,but then came reality…

Time is a state of mind,inside what counts,
Love,joy,a full life,passion,ask any amount…

We were all once young,this is the truth,a fact,
What matters most,in reality,how we do react…

Time stops for no one,for millions of years,
So enjoy life to the fullest,live with no fears…

Have no regrets,make mistakes,but learn,
Time is your friend,in the end,what you earn…

Love is the key,whether you win at it,or not,
Just trying your best,is enough,and sought…

The beauty with time is,we all soon realize,
Beauty lies within,unseen by the naked eye…

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” On borrowed time…”

It`s been a journey,all the things I have done,
With no regrets,decitions made,lost or I won…

Refections of my mind,real or my imagination,
From start to finish,number one,with passion…

Time has been kind to me,sometimes siblime,
I also realize,appreicate,I`m on borrowed time…

So as memories,keep me satisfied and happy,
Knowing the seconds pass by,just try to be me…

Lived in the edge,leaps of faith,take a chance,
Fullfilled my dreams and more,even romance…

Never take life or people for granted,no regrets,
I am on now on borrowed time,now only to refect…

On borrowed time…

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” My Sweet Creator…”

Little did I realize or know,you were there,

You were the light of love,this you shared…

Now when I look back,when I was a child,

Your love filled me,courage,done with style…

In my darkest moments,spirit always there,

Guideing me,showing me,how much you cared…

I hear the ancestors,softly speaking to me,

Threw drumming and singing,for me to see…

I am never really alone,thankyou my sweet creator,

For allowing me to love you,completely in order…

So I pray,each morning,I humble myself,to you,

Gratefull and appreciate,for all that you really do…

Your sweet energy,lives within me,it always has,

I feel no longer alone,in darkness,I never was…

Thankyou for a long life,more than I ever expected,

Life lessons,friendships and love,feel so protected…

So I sing and drum,this love song to you,dear creator,

My time will come,to be with you,in spirit,so till later…

My Sweet Creator…

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“My best friend…”

To say nothing,I would regret,you are my best friend,

Unconditional love and respect,completely in the end…

Someone to share my deepest thoughts,even my fears,

Your compassion,kindness,tenderness,wipes my tears…

So dependable and loyal,it feels hard to believe,it is so,

Brings me comfort and pleasure,this is all I really know…

So,I am happy to call you my best friend,so I thankyou,

A friendship forever,I cherrish and appreciate,this I do…

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“Imperfections…”

My darling,what I love about you most,is your imperfections,

I see your beauty inside,what makes you beautifull outside,

Unconditional love,freedom of spirit and will,so much passion…

Acceptance works both ways,being non-judgemental,darling,

Kindred spirits forever,full of laughter and joy,togetherness,

You make my days brighter,future better,pure happiness brings…

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Year end message…I always process,each year…what did I learn…One thing I always give thanks for,is my elders,what they truely mean to me.The men and women who took my under thier wings and shared thier wisdom,love,compassion,thier guidance…In my learning/healing/spiritual journey,I have been blessed to have had such beautifull human beings as my teachers.They are the most respectfull,the most humble,most compassionate,wise people I have ever met…I learnt to offer tobacco and gifts,to ask my question(s) but also never to interrup or I would disciplined but with love,tough love…When a elder speaks to you,he or she,will give you a honest answer…wait till they are finished.Then ask another question and so on…Take thier knowledge and wisdom and think about it…To make mistakes,this is normal but to learn from the mistakes and to stop beating yourself up so much…go to the light…They say…it will come to you soon,next week,next year but it will come to you…your lesson! Traditional teachings are thousands of years of ancient wisdom…Respect all living things,respect Mother Earth,all people,understand ballance is everything.BUT,remember to respect yourself,number one,be kind.be open to all knowledge,the universe,each second.Remember that I am just a human being,having a human experiance,just like yourself…I am in my golden age.and gratefull for my health,for everything,everyone,for a new sun rise and so on but…I never forget my elders…all the beautifull elders in my dayly prayers…aho

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We are blessed,to still have elders,in our native communities.The old ones,women and men,our teachers…this is just one of the great teachings…

” One Second at a time…”

I was not brought up,in my culture or family,

Was so confused,misunderstood,clear to see…

Not till I stop searching,but looked deep within,

Who I really was,first nation,a human,a indian…

Our elders,our teachers,mentors and storytellers,

All we have to do,is to listen,a lesson delivered…

To appreciate and respect,one second at a time,

Once realized,so humbled,so amazing,so devine…

To love myself first,before I could love another,

Respect the elders,the love of my father,mother…

Even though it was taken away from me,was so,

To understand,the bigger picture,for me to know…

One second at a time,baby steps,show appreciation,

To love life,learn the lessons,to respect all creation…

All My Relations…

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When the time comes,my first book of my work,I will call “Words of Love….”

” Last Waltz…”

May I ask you darling,for this last waltz,

Hold you close to my body,nothing else…

Feeling your breath,on my neck and ear,

Your scent I adore,is what I hold so dear…

Feeling your heart,beating on my chest,

Romantic imaginations,and all the rest…

Soft candle light burning,silent emotions,

Energy flowing,erotic thoughts,passions…

So my darling,we dance late into the night,

Dreaming of the future together,we might…

Found true love and satisfaction,together,

Time is only time,so nothing else matters…

The last waltz our reality,is our connection,

Building a life together,with pure devotion…

No words,to express,how much I love you,

This last waltz is for us,a love dance of two…

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“Forgive me…”

I try my best,to pray every day,

Ask for help,showing me the way…

To heal my heart and my soul,

Trying to be honest and be loyal…

To forgive me,mistakes I make,

Life really is about,give and take…

To humble myself,only just to you,

Continue my journey,is what I do…

Knowing spiritual eyes,are watching,

The red road,I am always walking…

Spiritual ears listening,always open,

Carefull of my words,to never pretend…

Please forgive me,when I do wrong,

Mistakes I made,that make me strong…

Just a human being,with good intent,

I am only having,a human experience…

So please forgive me…

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The beauty,lives inside…why this poem came to me…

“The Spirit within…”

Realize,we are part of creation,the spirit within,

So timeless in space,generation to generation…

Threw evolution,billions of years,stories untold,

Are the secrets of time,spiritual lessons do hold…

We think a life time,considered long,but realize,

Like a grain of sand,in a ocean,in creator`s eye…

That stories oraly told,called traditional teachings,

To respect,learn the lessons,to always searching…

The secrets,deep in the land,are secrets of wisdom,

In reality,the wisdom deep inside,the spirit within…

We can decide,what is best and right,our decition,

Within the spirit within,the mind,beauty of creation…

aho…

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“Remember when…”

Remember when,ones word meant something,

Like it is written in stone,respecting all it brings…

Remember when,elders were highly respected,

When the past was not forgotten,but protected…

Remember when,a hand shake,better than paper,

Loyality and honesty was always,sooner than later…

Remember when,true friendship was solid as gold,

Years pass by,no matter,friendships never got old…

Remember when,tomorrow looked so much clearer,

Dreams became reality,hard work,life was dearer…

Remember when,a relationship meant everything,

Growing older together,death do us part,wondering…

Remember when,that blood was thicker,than water,

What ever happened,when family,really did matter…

Remember when…

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” It is time…”

It is time,to realize that life is really worth living,

Time to be open minded,the rewards of giving…

It is time,to respect each other,all living things,

Time to be humble,to appreciate,without strings…

It is time,to love each other,to have compassion,

Time of exceptance,not judgement,but interaction…

It is time,to wish for a better future and to dream,

Time to realize,we all matter,so easy it does seem…

It is time,to respect Mother Earth and the water

Time to understand,she actully is,all our mother…

It is time,to be gratefull and be more respectfull,

Time to be thankfull,kind to others,we do control…

It is time…

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” Music Revolution…”

Threw the ages of time,to ancient to today,music is music,

From drums to electric,storytellers,played with pure instinct…

Generation to generation,performed in many different styles,

Telling the stories,of the past and present,truth,not in denial…

Threwout the ages,it remains the same,it is all about change,

Songs filled with of the stories,music is the name of the game…

Full of culture,the winds of change,music lives deep in the soul,

Music comes from deep within,from childhood,when we get old…

Music written,from the dark to the light,with sincere expression,

From gentle notes,to hard rock,discribes the music revolution…

The future generations,will have thier own style,this is for sure,

They will think,we are ancient,without doubt,music will endure…

For me,it depends how I feel,at the moment,or anytime of day,

The harmony,the lyric,the beat,what the song,really does say…

For each generation,is the part of the music revolution of time,

Some songs die,some live on forever,in the soul and in the mind…

Let the music play on…

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“Sunday Blues…”

Here I sit,thinking of you,day and night,got the Sunday blues,

Missing the connection,deep secret intention,thinking of you…

Was I dreaming,was it my imagination,it feels like a dream,

In my loneiness,in another world,so lost in time,so extreme…

Oh baby,I got the Sunday blues,what a contradiction,within,

My body hurts,my mind swirling,explination,where do I begin…

I am so gratefull,have got my memories of you,pure reaction,

You warmed my heart,heated my soul,I feel all your passion…

So here I sit,and wonder,plus I ponder,to just to be with you,

Thankyou darling,it does not matter,I got the Sunday blues…

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I owe everything to my elders,the men and women,who took me under thier wings…

” The other side…”

Ancient stories told,to generation to generation

Of the cycle of life,the journey of reincarnation…

From birth to death,the circle of life,it was told

To learn the lessons,to appreciate growing old…

To understand,the other side,without hesitation

Of the beauty,not to fear,but show appreciation…

That the golden age,is ones reward,much more

Appreciate the journey,all living things,we adore…

I am on this journey,my time will come,to leave

Full of blessings and rewards,this I do believe…

I thank my teachers,for sharing this with me

Gratefull and humbled,open minded,to be free…

What have I learnt,did I truely do my very best

Was I,a kind person,respectfull,did I pass the test…

I am now perparing,for the light,the other side

Gratefull,and so full of joy,with nothing to hide…

All My Relations…

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All humans want to be loved,respected for who they are…We keep our deepest secrets hidden untill we find a bright light,called love…

” A bright light…”

The human journey,is complex and difficult

On many different levels,what we are dealt…

A personal and private affair,try as we might

Always searching endlessly,for a bright light…

Smile on the outside,acting if we are strong

Hide behind our walls,as if nothing is wrong…

So simple it is,what we want,not alot to ask for

Love plus affection and respect,nothing more…

Instead,I hide deep inside,my deepest emotions

Yearning for the light,awaken my inner passions…

The years past by,not forgotten,but I still believe

I am worth something,to someone,at nights eve…

All I know is,I have so much love,to give freely

Open heart,open mind,freedom,said sincerely…

All the human feelings,are hidden from sight

In the mist and darkness,to find a bright light…

Then I found you…

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” I lefted my heart in Amsterdam…”

Walking by the waters edge,at nights eve,

The sounds of night,echo deep,do decieve…

People from all cultures,a sweet dutch delight,

Window shopping,never boring,threw the night…

Museums,international foods galore,to enjoy,

Night life,city sounds,freedom,not to be coy…

Cafe,bars filled with music,orders in the air,

People watching,free thinkers,so be aware…

I lefted my heart in Amsterdam,with no regret,

Memories to last a life time,never shall forget…

Amsterdam…

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” In the autumn of my mind…”

How quick the time flys by,in the blink of a eye…

The memories slowly fade,at the end of the day…

Thin greyer hair,once young body disappears…

Lost so many loved ones and friends,remains…

Some regrets and some not,nor have I forgot…

Gratefull love found me,I loved in return to see…

My hopes and dreams,wishfull thinking it seems…

Enjoy what ever time,lefted in the autumn of my mind…

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“In my solitude…”

I find my

inner happiness

deep within,

Searching each

dark corner

and then begin…

For knowledge

or wisdom

mostly healing,

But also

I find what is

rewarding…

In my solitude

only answer

to one,

Not to lose

sight

before I began…

Deep emotions

from within

I find,

Buryed deep

my protection

so devine…

Birth and death

go hand

in hand,

Memories of old

and new

I understand…

I love the smell

and taste

of passion,

Of desire

and lust

sweet reaction…

But for now

my friend

I let it be,

In my solitude

I swim

perfect for me…

 

In my solitude…

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In my life time,two men who truely inspired me,as a artist/writer…John Lennon and Leonard Cohen,both non-native but still kindred spirits…Now they are both gone to the other side…aho

“Never…”

Never,have I ever once given up on life

Love and compassion,my secret device…

Never,have I allowed,hate within my heart

But understanding,respect,is a good start…

Never,have I lost my dreams and hope

Only positive thinking,helps me to cope…

Never,do I take anything for granted

But to see a new sun rise,all I wanted…

Never,I allowed,my dreams to ever end

Nor depression or anger,or to pretend…

Never,have I forgot people,are in need

In pain,forgotten,remember,interseed…

Never,forget to give peace a chance,imagine

To heal the past,reality is,just a matter of time…

Never,forget that I am just a bird on a wire

Enjoying each second,love,lust and desire…

Never,forget the mistakes I made,it is so

Lessons learnt,sweet people met,I know…

Never,forget to say I love you,to regret

All alone in the end,before it is too late…

Never,I regret my tears of joy,deep pain

Memories for me,last forever,do remain…

Never,will I forget,these two men,to see

Cohen and Lennon,kindred spirits,for me…

Never,to forget,thier words of love and peace

To remember,thier songs and words,at least…

Never,but realize I tried to do,was my best

To live life to the fullest,that I pasted the test…

So thankyou,Leonard and John…

In respect…RIP…

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“What ever happened…”

What ever happened to mutual human respect

Kindness,loyality,freedom,we all must protect…

What ever happened,to the respect of a elder

For thier love and wisdom,is it lost forever…

What ever happened,to honor one`s word

Being positive and open,to looking forward…

What ever happened,to human communication

Internet,cyber space,all too fast,no interaction…

What ever happened,to loyal true friendship

Commitment,being there,did we all forget…

What ever happened,to actual spiritual belief

Only war,power,greed,ego,it only gives us grief…

What ever happened,to mutual personal respect

Why so many of us,have to live with,heavy regret…

What ever happened,to all our own self worth

To all living things,here apon on Mother Earth…

What ever happened,to a pure,simple childhood

Where dreams and hope,were once understood…

What ever happened,to affection and deep love

For each other,and the higher power above…

What ever happened…

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”  Morning prayer…”

I start each day with prayer,to start my day

A morning prayer of gratitude,I try to pray…

My health,number one,with sincere humility

A new sun,friends,love ones,very close to me…

Of those who lefted far too soon,who pasted

Memories of old,never forgotten,forever last…

Ask prayers of wisdom,courage and knowledge

To live a long life,full filled,taken of advantage…

To be thankfull,I found love,and given,in return

Mutual respect,friendship,knowing I have earned…

For my elders,teachers,people who truely cared

My healing journey,prayers to my creator,shared…

Just to be thankfull,for all I really do have,more

Leaving the past,in the past,tomorrow,to explore…

To realize,how rich I am,and so full of gratitude

My morning prayer,each new day,I do thankyou…

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” Just because…”

First thing in the morning,I think of you

I smile inside,just because,what you do…

Or when I buy you a rose,for no reason

Just because,simplely a show of affection…

Able to tell you,my inner feelings,and know

A form of protection and safety,this is so…

A warm embrace,a gentle hug,a tender kiss

Knowing all too well,this I would surely miss…

So my sweet darling,this is only between us

Thankyou for being there for me,just because…

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“Take nothing for granted…”

One thing I can say for sure,it is this my friend

The journey of a long life,enjoy till the very end…

Learn the lessons,make your mistakes,but learn

Pure joy,inner peace,love and more,we do earn…

Take nothing for granted,not for one second

Each person,experiance,life and death intend…

Number one is good health,or we have nothing

An oppertunity to grow,move forward,learning…

Hold onto love,hold onto it dearly,never know

How long,it will be yours to hold onto,it is so…

You never know when,sudden death does come

A friend,relative,your life,happens to everyone…

Feel the laughter,feel the joy,loyal friendships

Memories for only you,within all relationships…

Growing old is a gift,inner peace contentment

Remember this please,take nothing for granted…

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” Was just a matter of time…”

As times goes by,my secret memories are mine

Years go by,fast it seems,was a matter of time…

What have I done,good or bad,happy or sad

Reality is,did my very best,it makes me gald…

Grey hair,wrinkles galore,but still with passion

Reflecting life lessons,honestly is,my attraction…

All I know for sure is,I do not have any control

Only my state of mind,what is within my soul…

Hope I bring a smile,with no regret,I do pray

That all was worth while,at the end of the day…

That I made a difference,when you do reflect

Healing the heart and soul,in deepest respect…

All I know is,when it comes my time,to leave

To another higher place,is my reward,I believe…

I tried to heal,your broken soul,as you did mine

A haunted past,you had,just was a matter of time…

We each all have a past,this for sure,I do know

Lost love,broken hearts,a broken soul,it is so…

Hope I mattered,even for a short time,together

Time is only a state of mind,nothing last forever…

Was just a matter of time….

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“Just remember…”

When you are feeling down,just remember

I am here for you,from January to December…

When all you need,is a friendly ear,to listen

Take as long as you need,with no interuption…

Or a tender,gentle hug of effection,my dear

Only compassion and understanding,so clear…

Just remember,I am your friend,to the very end

Never leave you alone,unprotected,or pretend…

Just sit in silence,your heart is in my hands

A safe place,so just remember,to understand…

Whether together or a thousand miles apart

Just remember darling,you are in my heart…

Just remember…

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” No expectations…”

I love not knowing,what is around the next corner

Having no expectations,nonjudgement,is better…

This is when,I get unexpected,moments of time

Friendships or more,I realize that it is all mine…

Kindness and pleasure,was for me to totally enjoy

Happiness,is all I ever wanted,since I was a boy…

Every person,who ever came or left,was a reason

For me,was to see and learn,from each life lesson…

Whether one understands me or not,matters not

But those who do connect,is what really counts alot…

So,I have no expectations,in the end,appreciation

In return,gets my respect,love,with no expectations….

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“For today…”

For today

I give thanks

For my health

For my inner peace

For my passion

For my gifts

For my friends

For my  love ones

For a new sun rise

For my memories

For life it`s self

For today…

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It is not a matter of if but a matter of when…I find the right publisher for my poems.My first book of my work,it will be called “Words of Love…” This newest poem that will be part of it…for the romantic at heart…

” My better half…”

When I was single,I enjoyed alot,but I admit

Having a partner of love,I do not have,regret…

Lessons learnt,mistakes made,that`s for sure

One thing I realize is now,what I can endure…

Having a good woman beside,makes the man

A partner in life,threw good or bad,I understand…

I am able to be free,but still connected,two as one

My better half,makes me into,who I really am…

Be strong when needed,also able to be tender

Tears of joy,tears of pain,always I remember…

We are teachers,you me,me you,of each other

To be a good friend,good listener,excellent lover…

If I forget to tell you,what you really,mean to me

Please forgive,my better half,it was meant to be…

My better half…

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“Two different things…”

Being in love and saying it,are two different things

Once you understand this,real passion it does bring…

Being a best friend,never judge,only compassion

Laughter and pure joy together,is the attraction…

I always believed that true friendship,is the key

Means the very most to me,allow it to be,naturally…

When the friendship dies,so does the relationship

So remember why,the reason when you first met…

Two different things…

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” My wish…”

My wish,came true

I finally met you…

My dreams also

It is so,beautifull…

To have a friend

Like you,did send…

To be healthy,wise

For me to decide…

To have laughter

Pure joy,together…

To realize,I matter

A kind tender,lover…

To live,without regret

My wish,never forget…

I wish

This for you…

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” When it is time…”

Matters not,who you are,you know when it is time

Time to let them go,reality is reality,yours and mine…

When a love one dies,mourning and grief,is part of it

A final goodby,but be gratefull,you will never forget…

To walk away from a friendship,you when it is time

The fork in the road,time to move on,reaction siblime…

Or when love fades away,we all have no real control

But to find it one time,is enough,this at least you know…

When it is time…

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” See me…

If you might,I would really appreciate it

See me,not the outside,but deep inside

I am human,with feelings,so don`t forget…

Beauty is only skin deep,is not everything

I may not be perfect,but I have a good heart

See me,if you might,appreciation it brings…

So see me…

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“Figment of my imagination…”

It took me decades to realize,I had to pay attention

I was my worst enemy,figment of my own imagination…

Too busy feeling sorry,pointing fingers,putting blame

Not taking responcibilities,was the name of the game…

Most was a figment of my own imagination,I admit

Too little too late,had to wake up,before was too late…

Love and except,to give back,what was given to me

Open my mind and eyes,to understand completely…

So,no more denial,no more lies,be honest and kind

To finally be free,enjoy what life brings,keep in mind…

Never to take anything,anyone for granted,anymore

One baby step at a time,feed my passion,all I adore…

This is not a figment of my imagination…

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“Listen…”

Listen to your heart

Listen to your mind

Listen to the spirits

Listen to the elders

Listen to the ancestors

Listen to the wind spirits

Listen to the water spirits

Listen to the tree spirits

Listen to the wing spirits

Listen to the four legged spirits

Listen to the drum

Listen to the songs

Listen to Mother Earth

Listen to the wisdom

Listen to the knowledge

Listen to the stories

Listen to the eagle

Listen to your soul

Listen…

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One for my book of love poems…

” Aphrodisiac…”

I live within my mind,for most of the time

Fantasy plus passion,thoughts so devine…

Like a kid in the candy store,wanting more

You are my aphrodisiac,you are who,I adore…

No words can explain it all,nor do I want to

How you make me feel dear,I lust over you…

Like honey for the bee,you taste so sweet

Craveing every drop,intimate and discreet…

Erotic thoughts,erotic dreams,of you dear

Tender or wild,no matter,this is very clear…

So my darling,now you know,how I do feel

My aphrodisiac,love you,lets seal the deal…

My aphrodisiac…

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“Living with dyslexica…”

All I say to you is,give me a chance,time to learn

I am only dyslexic,so please,respect I will earn…

I am not lazy,stupid or retarded,I am very intelligent

Just dyslexic,with learning problems,understatement…

It may take me longer,but I always process everything

To make sence,show you I do understand,is not a sin…

I just live with being dyslexic,in a state of confusion

But always figure it out,in the end,it is my intention…

Education is the key,communcation,for you and me

Living with dyslexica,all it is,understanding,my reality…

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” I hear you,mother…”

Deep within my silence,then I hear you

Natural law,teaching me,healing you do…

My teachers taught me well,how to do it

To pay attention,learn,never to forget…

It is you,who gives me life,to have meaning

The beauty around me,hear her speaking…

For millions of years,more than I can see

To be respectfull of all living things,for me…

To enjoy each sunrise and sunset,to learn

And appreciate,all I have,what I`ve earned…

I hear you my mother,I feel your deep love

The creator,ancestors,watching from above…

So in my prayers,sincerely give thanks,to you

In my songs,my drum,a love song,I thankyou…

I hear you,mother…

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I have loved music my whole life,all styles…But I am a huge soft jazz lover and lately I have a electric piano to play,something that has been a dream of mine for years…I will compose/record music to this song…

“Soft jazz blues…”

In the still of the night,I got the soft jazz blues
Thinking of the times together,the beauty of you…

Gentle moments of time,kissing my soul,so sweet
Gratefull that we met,souls passing by,did we meet…

Oh baby,I got the soft jazz blues,I am missing you
Holding you against me,slow waltz,feeling so blue…

So,I send you all my love,a reminder,how much I care
See you sometime,not really knowing when,if or where…

So,out of love and passion,I sing the soft jazz blues
Only of you,with a smile on my face,inside,this I do…

Dark lite room,candles burning softly,love in the air
Listening to the soft jazz blues,imagine you,if I dare…

I got the soft jazz blues…
(repeat three times)

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Threwout my art career,the foundation has been “Believe in your dreams”…With children or adults,the message is the same,threw paintings,my peoms or oral speaking.When I was little,I heard,you are lazy,stupid,retarded,never will amount to anything.This never stopped me and made me even stronger,to dream and work harder.So I tell,children/adults,never allow others,no matter who they are to talk down to you!Just the opposite actully…Hold onto the positive,loving,supportive people in your life,who believe in you…Here I am 63,soon to be 64 and I will not allow anyone to say negative things to me,just walk away…I still have many dreams to fullfill and enjoy what time I have lefted,on this beautfiull planet.My point remains the same…”Believe in your dreams,dreams do come true…I know this is true because mine have…” So keep dreaming,work hard,be committed,think positive and your dreams may come true also…All My Relations…

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” I thankyou…”

Why I give thanks every morning,threwout the day
I am so gratefull and humbled,for so many things
I thankyou,for just being there,listen to what I say…

I thankyou for being my friend,for always being there
Listening to me as I do you,a friendship I hold so dear
For understanding me,your compassion,that you care…

For making me believe,dreams come true,is important
So very thankfull for all,why I thankyou,it humbles me
I hope you realize forever,I feel this way,for instance…

Before I met you,I had a huge hole in my heart,so true
Was full of mistrust,so hard to believe,it was my reality
But not any more,the hole is smaller now,why I thankyou…

I thankyou…

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“Within my mind…”

In my silence is where,I am truely the happiest
Within my mind,to reflect,a life time of tests…

Or just to enjoy the silence and peace,in me
Still here after all these years,was meant to be…

Thanking my elders,for all thier love and wisdom
To prepare me,to understand,what all was to come…

Leave the past in the past,where it really belongs
To see and realize,good in the rights,not the wrongs…

Deep within my mind,to see life`s lessons,and why
To enjoy the journey,see the beauty,within my eyes…

To realize,how rich I truely am,and not all alone
Health,family,love,friends,so much more to atone…

Reality is all the beauty around me,all living things
To be always humble,respect,what life does bring…

So here I am,lost within my mind,but do understand
Trying my very best,I realize,I am just a simple man…

Within my mind…

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” I am just a man…”

When I was young,was told so many things
What a man is or not,with all it brings…

Show no tears,no pain,always in control
Hide all my feelings,was what I was told…

I believe most men feel,as a woman feels
Threw good and bad siduations,how we deal…

Tender and gentle,have alot of love to give
Freedom to express,emotions and how to live…

I am just a man,a human being,and imperfect
With much to give and share,to keep love intact…

Tender moments,still silence,full of trust
Imagination,full of dreams,devotion and lust…

Take me as I am darling,you will not regret
This small promise to you,forever always kept…

I am just a man,who makes mistakes,and learning
Your best friend forever,my sweet dear darling…

I am just a man…

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” Just because…”

A rose for you,just because,for no reason
Just to let you know,I care,feel my passion…

A sweet warm smile,or a twinkle in my eye
To show you,just because,no real reason why…

Or a warm hug of tenderness,wanting no more
A tingling sensation,you are dear,what I adore…

A long conversation,giving opinions,it is so
Understanding and more,this is all I know…

A light kiss,like a feather,I give this freely
To remind you,just because,I love you dearly…

To let you know,I will be there for you,always
Believe,this is real and strong,what I do say…

Love is so fragile,breaks so easy,what we do
So my darling,reminding you,I truely love you…

Just because…

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” What it means…”

When ever you make a stand,in what you believe
Comes a price to pay,but worth it,comes true relief…

No one can ever make everyone happy,or content
But if you make a difference,in a life,what was meant…

Love is real,friendship too,in the end,what it means
Joy and laughter,tender moments,so easy,it seems…

Each human is on thier own journey,thier decition
To see,what it means,inner love,with compassion…

So take my hand,take my heart,come walk with me
See for yourself,what it means,as it is meant to be…

All I can do is love you,unconditionaly,to set you free
Threwout my life,reality is,this is what it means to me…

Love and Peace…

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“Sweet Memories…”

When ever I think of you,is of sweet memories
My imagination,memories run away,within me…

Just the idea,is enough to fill my soul and heart
Pure happiness and joy,right from the very start…

So all I can say,from deep inside is,I thankyou
For everything you have said or done,it is true…

Such sweet memories,they`re only just for me
Thinking of you,brings a smile,was meant to be…

You allow me,my freedom to fly,with out no fear
So thankyou,for sweet memories,you are so dear…

Sweet memories,money can`t buy,they are free
So hold onto them dearly,such sweet memories…

Sweet memories…

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“Fly sweet spirit fly…”

Open up your eyes,open up your heart
Fly sweet spirit fly,freedom from the start…

Go where you have not gone before,do it
Searching in the dark,our spirits soon met…

Dream those dreams,of a new tomorrow
Leave the past in the past,no more sorrow…

So fly sweet spirit fly,fly with the eagle high
Look at life,a different point of view,ask why…

For only love and harmony,I am behind you
There if you fall,by your side,always I will do…

So fly sweet spirit fly…

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” I`m Disappointed…”

I really did want to believe,completely in you
I`m disappointed,reactions came,out of the blue…

Tried to tell you,I would not live this way
The end was nearing,to leave you one day…

How can we have compassion,love,how can this be
Never a kind word,always talking ignorant to me…

Say one thing,completely doing something else
Mostly what you do,is only ever think of yourself…

I am so disappointed,I only wanted to believe
The last thing I ever wanted to do,was to leave…

I tried to love you,to be there,this I did try
Waited and got tired of waiting,I had to realize…

Mending my heart now,starting all over agian
To a brighter future,inner peace,it shall remain…

I´m disappointed,more than you`ll ever know
No more wishfull thinking,I had to let you go…

What once was,slowly died,just a matter of time
No more heart ache or feeling alone in my mind…

I must thankyou,found out what love is,it remains
So no one to blame,not really,was part of the game…

So fly free,like me,I will have my own memories
Two souls met,enjoyed,laughed and cried,let it be…

No more disappointments,reality starts and begins
To dream my dreams,where everybody,always wins…

Now,I can believe in myself,for me to be free
To fly high and free searching,just to be me…

So now,I feel no disappointments,lessons learnt
You were there for a reason,lessons well earnt…

So thankyou…
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“Spirit is Spirit…”

It is so,in life,there are so many different ways
Culture,teachings,many changes,like a new day…

Trying to live a rich full life,for us all,is important
Being our very best,respectfull,kind,for instance…

We all come into this life and leave,a simple spirit
The journey is what it is all about,less we forget…

Spirit is spirit,so pure,such beauty,this I do know
Like a bud,turns into a flower,to bloom to grow…

To see the light,in the darkness,I have no regret
I am spirit,I am in the light,I know spirit is spirit…

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“Beautifull…”

Each new day,is beautiful
Kindred spirits,are beautifull
A child`s innocents,is beautifull
Laughter and joy,is beautifull
Nature is beautifull
Healing is beautifull
Memories are beautifull
All living things,are beautifull
Learning is beautifull
Life is beautifull
Your mind is beautifull
Your heart is beautifull
The journey is beautifull
I am beautifull
You are beautifull
Beauty is
in the eye
of the beholder

Beautifull…

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The older I get,the more I appreciate…That I have lived as long as I have and to have many more rewarding years to come.Gratefull for my art career because so many doors opened for me that needed to be opened.All the success,travel,experiances I have had,the beautifull people who crossed my path.The friendships made,the sweet memories I now hold dear to my heart.That I learnt to leave the past where it really belongs,in the past.To live each new day as if it were to be my last.To still dream of the future…The great gift of my art and in the past few years,the gift of the written word.To be able to express my deepest thoughts and feelings and that my work…touches the soul of the people.To realize I am just a human being having a human experiance.That I am no better than any one else…That my heart has love,compassion and that my passion burns brighter than ever…Love and Peace…

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“The love inside of me…”

I always knew it was there,when I was younger
Searching and wanting,always to feed my hunger…

All I know for sure it flows,the love inside of me
More than enough to go around,it is my reality…

The love inside of me,really comes with no strings
With no judgement,fearless,sincerity does brings…

Even if I act strong,inside is gentle and tender
Love is love,this is when,I am willing to surrender…

Filled with total passion,on every level,it overflows
Yours for the having,so completely,this I do know…

We are all looking for love and able to love back
Equal exceptance and ballance,freedom to react…

The love inside of me,never ending,it is like a river
Feeding the sences,feeding the soul,lasting forever…

Is the love inside of me…

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” My Guardian Angel…”

You are my guardian angel,and I thank you
For watching over me,for all you really do…

Bring me to the light,inner peace and humility
Not in ego or greed,but to only see the beauty…

Protect me from harm and pain,from all other
Showing me,what is best for me,to discover…

Keeping me not to make,too big of a mistake
Realize,that life really is about,give and take…

Helping me to find my courage,also my own will
To take that leap of faith,to never to be still…

For showing me,that love is real,it is up to me
My guardian angel,so gentle,a serene harmony…

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“So simple…”

It`s so simple,you just have to realize it
A kiss,a hug of effection,with no regret…

Tender moments,no words said,only silence
Feeling wanted,appreciated,is so intence…

Or listening to what each have to say
Freedom of expression,not have to pay…

So simple,is right in front of your eyes
Only pure truth of love,hear no more lies…

Just to be a loyal friend,always there
Never judgeing,only showing that we care…

Skin to skin,under the bright moon light
Melting together as one,try as we might…

Say,I love you,with no strings attached
So simple,two kindred spirits,do react…

This is your right,to love and to be loved
So simple,energy flows,to be open hearted…

So simple…

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“It was worth it…”

The journey of my dreams,to find my way
Listen to my heart,to what it had to say…

That scared,lonely child,forever searching
To a better life,full of love,so endearing…

My past is my past,I found my inner beauty
Happiness,feeling content,it is my reality…

Traveled the planet,was not only in my mind
So many memories,enough to last a life time…

Never allowing,anything to stop,me dreaming
It was worth it,completely,it was my healing…

So dreams really do come true,so don`forget
Following your heart,dreams,it is worth it…

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It has been some time since I wrote my thoughts…This year in September,I turn 64…the past couple of years,since I discovered the gift of the written word.My world has opened up,in ways I never thought…I have many written pieces here and also written on paper…they just keep pouring out…I have been told by some that my work touches them,some even save my work and many are waiting when I finally published my poems.It is a form where I can write what`s deep inside,some unspoken and even secret but most of all,my passion,that burns deeply within…not only for me but for those who can not or afraid to express,thier personal private thoughts.I understand and respect that.All artists understand what this is,doing what we love most,giving pleasure to others…with no strings attached…the power of the written word…

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“Before it is too late…”

Many take life for granted,with people that are there
Remember before it is too late,remind that you care…

Life can be taken away,in a second,one never knows
Cancer,heart attack,suicide,accident,old age,it is so…

Words unspoken,promises not kept,filled with regret
So remember,live without regret,before it is too late…

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” Missed Opportunity…”

I wondered if you would and waited for years
To say you are sorry,for the lies,for the tears…

I gave you so much time,to do what was right
But never a word,of redeption,try as I might…

All those hurtfull words,lies that were not true
Many saw threw it,will haunt forever,only you…

Is a saying,can`t take blood out of a stone
So why try,others understand,I am not alone…

Missed opportunity,there is only one word,mistake
You will have to live with it,is what you did make…

Important to remember,life is not a guarrantee
Only yourself to blame,is only for you to see…

All we can do is,find fullfillment and just to be
What you must realize,it was your missed opportunity…

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” Intuition…”

Intuitin is there for a reason,it is true
It lie`s deep within,both in me and you…

No need to second guess or wonder
To think over,no need to even ponder…

Go with the first feeling and thought
Appreciate everything you have got…

Intuition is knowing,when to walk away
Or searching for more,to another day…

Intuition relieves,alot of grief and pain
Notling to lose and everything to gain…

Works in love,romance and relationship
In all life decitions,take the first step…

Do whats right for you,a easy decition
A gift given to us all,it is called intuition…

Do not over think it,there is no reason
Go with your heart,and pay attention…

Intuition is there for a reason,not forgot
Instinct and reason,in the end,is sought…

Only you can decide alone,what is right
Not others perceptions,try as they might…

Go with your intuition,the best you can do
Learn your own lessons,is reality,is for you…

Follow your passions and live your dreams
Why intuition is always right,so it seems…

So go with your intuition…
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” I just want to say thankyou…”

Thankyou for being my friend…
Thankyou for loving me…
Thankyou for listening…
Thankyou for the laughter…
Thankyou for the memories…
Thankyou for understanding…
Thankyou for caring…
Thankyou for your compassion…
Thankyou for your loyality…
Thankyou for your kindness…
Thankyou for believeing in me…
Thankyou for being there…
Thankyou for being part of my life…
Thankyou for the passion…
Thankyou for your respect…

I just wanted to say thankyou…

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” The past is the past…”

Gone but not forgotten,the past is the past
Had to walk away,I`m much better off,at last…

Memories haunt me,found the will and courage
Moving onto the next chapter,turned the page…

They were like a cancer,and effecting my being
Eating at my soul,had to let them go,bleeding…

The past is the past,gone but not forgotten
Lefted in the dust of life,not all is forsaken…

Found my way,out of the darkness and the gloom
Made a new life far away,rewards of life loom…

Times,wish it was a figment of my imagination
But really happened to me,it was not a illusion…

No more heavy heart,or a state of depression
A healthy state of mind now,learnt my lessons…

Now have healed,found a better life and people
My dreams came true,after all,life is now stable…

The past is the past…
Dedicate this poem to those
who have suffered abuse
from people you trusted…

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” A hundred zillion dreams…”

Ever since I can remember,from a small child
Had a hundred zillion dreams within,all the while…

To be loved and respected and wanted,for me
See the sweet child and person,for all to see…

Of a better future,freedom to fly like a eagle high
Be a painter and tell my stories,as time went by…

To hold the laughter and joy,able to think and feel
Only go forward,another level,gives great appeal…

To paint Transformation,not only for me,also you
An inspiration,to heal and let go,we have to do…

To live to a old age,which I have,fills me with joy
So many transformations,dreams of a small boy…

It makes me so happy,a hundred zillion dreams
Reincarnation,my reality,is so simple,it seems…

so dream on…

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” Our children are our future…”

It has been part of the teachings,for thousands of years
Both elders and children,in reality,they are our teachers…

Each child is important,that all our children are our future
Our future leaders,mothers and fathers,storytellers of culture…

To show them,they are loved and respected,and are important
And carry on the culture,spiritual teachers,of thier desendants…

To stay in ballance always,with self and with mother nature
And believe in thier dreams,hopes and wishes,so they endure…

In prayer,dance and music,to tell the ancient stories,of old
With pride,still be humble,the sacred ways,of what was told…

Our children are our future,to have love and to be respectfull
To learn the lessons,believe in tomorrow,the future,it is so…

It is our responcibility,to be good teachers,for our children
As a elder,is part of the culture,said with love and affection…

Our children are our future…

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“Just for the love of it…”

My reality is,it happens when,I just do it for the love of it
Many do not understand me,with this,I have no regret…

I followed my inner passions,freely,no matter what
Succeeded with most,joyfully never this I have forgot…

Lived my hopes and dreams,what was deep in my heart
Was only just for me to answer,right from the start…

So very simple as a new day,to what comes what may
To paying attention,to being free,to each new day…

Just trying to have a good heart and to being kind
Always being respectfull,never crossing others line…

To have a open mind to change,if I do not understand
It is not for me to judge,nor is it for me to demand…

To love and commit unconditionaly,only a matter of time
There are no exceptions,to never forget,within my mind…

To do the best I can,always to be the very best friend
To always be loyal,trust worthy,right to the very end..

For me it work the best,when just for the love of it
Till my last breath,I made this promise,not to forget…

Just for the love of it…

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” Who really has the problem…”

It is so easy to point a finger,making judgement
Saying things not true,causeing only discontent…

So remember,when pointing your finger,at someone
You have three pointing back,so who has the problem?…

So becarefull…

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“It`s the thought that counts…”

To be a good person,to be kind and respectfull
Honest,reliable and loyal,all anyone can ask for…

Always loving and careing,so full of compassion
Non judgemental,threw good or difficult siduation…

Willing to listen,day or night,what is so important
It`s the thought that counts the most,for instance…

A gentle hug,a tender kiss,appreciate any amount
But to be honest with you,it`s the thought that counts…

No one is prefect,so why question or wonder why
If together or alone,do not let time pass you by…

Friendship forever,sweet romance,does not matter
It`s the thought that counts,a mate,a friend,a lover…

It`s the thought that counts…for me…

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” Forever you are…”

Forever you are,deep within my heart
I loved you sincerely,from the very start…

Forever you are,at night,in my dreams
Drifting together in harmony,it seems…

Forever you are,always remembered
Lost memories,endless times together…

Forever you are,a sweet guardian angel
Over seeing,to protect me,when ever able…

Forever you are,my dearest loyal friend
Beside,always together,in the very end…

Forever you are,my special sweet lover
Private sweet moments shared,so tender…

Forever you are,always my inspiration
Gratefull and humbled,my celeibration…

Forever you are…

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“Out of sight,out of mind…”

Realize it or not,we all need to keep in better touch
Out of sight,out of mind,understand,not asking for much…

To act like there is notling wrong,is a huge mistake
Bad things happen to good people,illusions do make…

To hear,I love you,I miss you,we as humans,we all need
Inter connections,true effection,love,to plant the seed…

Denial is denial,greed is greed,at the end of the day
To live in fear and hate,sooner or later,we all will pay…

Hide behind money and faith,the color of ones skin
Ignorance,false hate,judgement,where it all begins…

Out of sight,out of mind,seems easyer for us to react
No responcibilities for one to take,what said or do act…

We all know right from wrong,what really works or not
Some where,some how,we all allowed,even worse,we forgot…

Life is one big lesson after the other,learning lessons
To be the best person,we can be,with good intentions…

So pay attention,learn your lessons,we all have to do
Love and compassion,heals the past,for me and for you…

Out of mind,out of sight…

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” I believe…”

I believe,to live life to the fullest
Good or bad,this really,is my test…

I believe,in love and commitment
Forget the past,to live with content…

I believe,that most have a good heart
Loyality and trust,sets them apart…

I believe,tomorrow is another day
Passion is key,at work or at play…

I believe in friendship,in the end
Good people,with good intention…

I believe,in reality,past is the past
To move forward,really is my task…

I believe in you,same as you,me
To tomorrow,to see what I can see…

I believe…

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“The fork in the road…”

One of the greatest gifts,is this,it never gets old
Sooner or later,we all come to the fork in the road…

Decition time,which way to go,what is best for us
More times than not,was right to do,we must trust…

To keep our mind and heart,in ballance and peace
Hold onto those who love and respect,this at least…

To be thankfull for what we have,not for we do not
Love is so fragile,can be lost,so many have forgot…

I have no regrets,the roads I took,was best for me
No turning back,that is ok with me,so I can just be…

On the fork in the road of life,found my happiness
Come and join me,on the long road of forgiveness…

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” Listen to my drum weep…”

As I beat and gentlely sing,a honor song

Of days gone of the past,of all the wrongs…

Children,family and culture,forever lost

All for the land,the riches,done at all cost…

I sing of lost love,so many lost empty years

Not of anger but grief,a silent river of tears…

I cry for the elders,our men,our women

All those parents,relatives,not forgotten…

The beat of mother earth,the sacred drum

Beats for the hundreds of millions,I am one…

From creator,ancestors and all living things

The healing,begins and comes,deep within…

So to all my relations,today,past and future

Listen to my drum weep,to honor,to endure…

All My relations…

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” Was never an option…”

Giving up,was never an option

The fire inside,was my passion…

Never allow,anything or anyone

To stop me,before I even begun…

Not to allow,people to hurt me

To say,I did not belong or be…

Was never an option,to give up

A leap of faith,is more than luck…

The word no,was never an option

To dream the dream,no exception…

My inner child,woke up,deep inside

Love only,was the key,not to hide…

I had an option,to decide,I took it

To this day,I remember,so perfect…

Life has been,more than good to me

I flew like a eagle,high,strong and free…

To over come,let it go,just to enjoy

And remember,that sweet little boy…

Manhood,to now,a wiser older man

A promise given,was always the plan…

Was never an option…

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” Expectations…”

Life is what it is,so unperdictable,

Always learning,threw mistakes,

Trying our best,to make it stable…

Expectations,can work both ways,

Bring comfort or totally unstable,

So be carefull,or you have to pay…

Do not listen,to those who hate,

Life goes much better and calmer,

Humans connecting,love it takes…

Smile from the inside,people will see,

Who you are,what is most important,

No expectations,as it is meant to be…

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“Refections…”

Not only a mirror,in reality,seeing refections,

Seeing deeper,clear and honest,good intentions…

Beauty is more than skin deep,more important,

Kindness,compassion,forgiveing,heart sent…

Greying hair,laugh lines,words of wisdom,

Gendor speaking,matters not,man or woman…

Refections of the past,today and tomorrow,

Fond memories,lost love,grief and sorrow…

So remember,when looking you may not see,

What you wanted,for yourself,nor for me…

Refections are there for a reason,good or bad,

Lessons learnt,humbled ego,either happy or sad…

So just be gratefull,for health,friendships and more,

A long life,sweet memories,free spirit soul,does sore…

Refections…………………………

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” Living my dreams…” As a little boy,in my siduation,I dreamed of traveling around the world as a artist.Well,my dreams came true.Even though I started late,some would say,when I turned 40 years of age,I have not one regret,of this life decition.The beautifull people I have met,my fellow artists,travel,museums,awards and reconition.Both in North America and Europe,never did I do it for these reasons,money,ego or greed,which makes what I have achieved even more rewarding and truely humbles me.Ever since day one,my peers,some of Canada`s most famous artists,mentored me and one gallery,the couple sat me down and gave me the do`s and what not to do.To  treat my art as a business,be professional at all times,treat everyone with great respect,as I wanted the same treatment,it works!Believe in yourself,your work…So here I am now,in my early 60`s and still have the love and passion for my work,agian no regrets.My native elders were the key,thier teachings gave me the strenght and courage.Like; take the good from the good and the good from the bad,it is the latter,where my greatest lessons are learnt…I have spoken to thousands of children and adults and my message has always remained the same…”Believe in your dreams,dreams do come true,mine have come true…”So your dreams can too,with no regrets,that is the key…All My Relations…

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“In my solitude…”

I enjoy people and life,it is true,

Long conversations,into the blue…

Nature,learning new things,I adore,

Friendships,love making,much more…

But where I am truely happiest is,

In my solitude,for me,is pure bliss…

You are always welcomed,to play.

With or without me,night or day…

Where there are no secrets or lies,

Only freedom to be and to fly high…

Inner peace and imagination,so sweet,

Erotic passion,which we all really seek…

I made it,where far too many did not,

Lost friendships and love,never I forgot…

In the end,I can say honestly,no regret,

Lived my passion of life,nor did forget…

Life is too short to waste,goes too fast,

In my solitude,today and not the past…

Lived out all my childhood dreams,

Life is a canvas,full of color,it seems…

Less I ever forget,so many sweet people,

Memories for a life time,so very simple…

The real beauty is,it is up to you or me,

What is or not,together,alone,let it be…

Thankyou sweet creator,for each new day,

Allowing me to decide,to find my own way…

Love and Peace…

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” Love is the key…”

Love is the key,that opens all doors,

Pure essence,alive sweet ordors.

No matter wood or hard cold steel,

Either small or huge or appeal.

The key of love,opens the mind,

No problem,is just a matter of time.

To all that is beautifull and can be,

Once opened,up to you and me.

Love is the key,realized this long ago,

To be a better person,passion I know.

My heart is now opened,love was the key,

Living each precious moment,for me.

No more sadness or anger,thank god,

Distant memories,they seem now odd.

Life is to lived to the fullest,no regrets,

It is now or never,never will I forget.

Either you get it or not,your decition,

Free with no strings and tons of passion.

Love is the key…

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” Remember when…”

Remember when,your word was like gold,

Solid as a rock,honesty,true as we were told.

Remember when,leaders were leaders,

Not like now,dishonest and cheaters…

Remember when,a child`s joy and laughter,

The future was there,to be happy ever after.

Remember when,one`s word,was like stone,

Reality today,when times are dark,all alone…

Remember when,blood was thicker than water,

This is why,extended family,is better and safer.

Remember when,the word love meant love,

When peace was peace,sign of the white dove…

Remember when,dreams and hope,were there,

Respect was respect,people really seem to care.

Remember when,memories were meant to be,

Our forever,they seem so distant,noting to see…

Remember when,they said there would never be,

Another great war,people suffering,not what I see.

But I remember when,I made a promise,long ago,

Never to stop being happy and gratefull,it is so…

Remember when…

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” Silent Tears…”

Do you hear me,

Can`t you see…

Silent tears,cry,

Of days gone by…

Broken children,

Silent voices,pretend…

Empty promises given,

Dark secrets,unspoken…

Remember,you are never,

Forgotten,healing delievered…

Abuse is abuse,no matter,

Unforgiven,which is sadder…

Greed is thier blind lust,

No matter,why no trust…

So just remember,never alone,

In the end,they have to atone…

Silent tears,rivers makeing,

Guilt and shame,under takeing…

All will have to answer,

Rather sooner than later…

My tears,not so silent,

Found my inner content…

Thankyou sweet creator,

Sweet healers and helpers…

Words of love and effection,

Now moving,in your direction…

Hopefully helping,threw the years,

To dry,those silent tears…

(Dedicated to all the children and big kids,with Love…)

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” Burning Bridges…”

No words are really needed,

In time,all does become clear,

No words spoken,or unheated…

Reality is,the past is the past,

We have to except,it is what it is,

What we do or say,forever last…

Pointing fingers,passing judgement,

What goes around,comes around,

Carma is carma,as it was meant…

Sometimes we can`t control,it happens,

Just do your best,mistakes are normal,

Lessons learnt,move on,it really depends…

Remember,burning bridges,isn`t the answer,

Like three fingers,pointing back,

Soon will have see,reality so very clear…

I learnt many years ago,not to burn,

My bridges,really not my personal style,

Respect and love,I truely have to earn…

If we can count our friends,on one hand,

Hold onto them dearly and cherrish,

Those very special people,who understand…

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” No words needed…”

I dreamed of you,

All of my life,unheeded.

With you,my darling,

No words are needed…

Kindred spirits,seems to be,

Unspoken words and actions.

Simplely amazeing,excepting,

This is the sweet attraction…

We both know,what it is or not,

Past is past,our understanding.

Healing together,love is love.

No words needed,my darling…

Thankyou…

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“Those were the days…”

Day dreaming of yesterdays past,

Wishfull thinking,would forever last…

When hopes of a better future,were for all,

Independance and choice,was your call…

Music filled the air,such sweet memories,

Passion of life,love,truth,just let it be…

Those really were the days,open minded,

Trust,belief,solid relationship,as intended…

But even so,I still dream of better days,

No matter what people may do or may say…

Notling is ever perfect,that is a fact,

Respect of nature,to leave it all intact…

For our children`futures,those yet to come,

They really are our futures,number one…

You may call me just a dreamer,so be it,

My peace of mind,written in stone,is set…

Being human,making mistakes,so it goes,

No guilt,shame,just life,as we all know…

What fun I had,in my youth,rock and roll,

Good times had,memories,good for my soul…

Remembering,those who crossed my path,

Thankfull and gratefull,beautifull,memories last…

Tender touch,full of lust,brings tear to my eye,

Those were the days,so very long gone by…

But my memories are mine,mine to keep,

Those were the days,my heart gently weeps…

So many are gone,to the other side,too soon,

Free spirits,calling sweetly,like the call of the Loon…

So,if you have been blessed like me,lucky you,

Remembering,those were the days,love me do…

Life has been kind to me,still here,too many did not,

In every morning prayer said,I have never ever forgot…

Those were the days…

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” A very thin line…”

It is so,what may be right or wrong,

All depends,if we are weak or strong.

Between truth or a complete total lie,

Time stops for no one,it will pass you by…

Saying you love and respect,always loyal,

Easyer said than done,so be very gratefull…

Love won,love lost,is not written in stone,

Some win,some lose,together or alone…

Blood is thicker than water,it is often said,

In the end,alone and heart broken,instead…

Positive gets positive,negative gets negative,

Words unsaid,promise`s not kept,is relative…

A very thin line,is all our reality,no exception,

What we do or not,with honesty and compassion…

It is said,if you can count your friends on one hand,

Then rich you are,that is a fact,so make your stand…

True history,reality never lies,no matter how long,

The years go by,fact is fact,what makes us strong…

So be gratefull if you have someone,who believes,

You are worth it,loyality goes far,is one of my belief`s…

So find your own way,what is really right for you,

Forget those who are jealous and angry,with what you do…

Take baby steps,slowly and carefully,is more intelligent,

Life is to be lived,enjoyed completely,as it is meant…

A very thin line…

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” Forever yours…”

I make no promises

that I can`t keep

but my darling

I will be

forever yours…

Perfect,I am not

nor do I admit

but my darling

I will be

forever yours…

Please be who you are

imperfection,yet discreet

but my darling

I will be

forever yours…

I may not always

say the right

things

but my darling

I will be

forever yours…

Freedom of choice

me for me

you for you

but my darling

I will be

forever yours…

With you my darling

you give me reason

and hope

so my darling

I will be

forever yours….

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Just a story…Soon,I am to become 63 years old,over 22 years as a professional artist.Over the years,I have been blessed with alot of reconition,awards and appreciation for me and my work.Which humbles me…I have never lived in ego or greed and my bank account shows this,he he.I have/had elders teaching me and some great fellow artists and some business people,teach and give me a solid foundation.I feel I have notling to prove and am very proud of all my success over my art career.If I have anything to pass on it is this; To our youth…believe in your dreams,dreams do come true,I know because mine have…hard work,dedication,commitment and belief in yourself.Will help make your dreams come true.I have mentored many younger artists this very thing,what was taught to me…I have no regrets and even at my age,I do not concider my career or life over,far from it…Love and Peace…All My Relations…the journey continues……………………..

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” Never say never…”

Even when we may think,

We are all alone.

But we are not,

Creator`s spirit is there.

Always, and for ever giving,

Love and respect,freely.

We all belong and have reason,

Children of pure love.

So never say never,

Tomorrow is another day.

When dark memories,

Slowly fade away.

Remember,love is free,

Costs notling,rewards high.

A loving hug,a warm smile,

Can heal,so very much.

Dry tears away,

So never say never.

Life is a journey and a gift,

Never take it for granted.

If my words,make your smile,

Feel love inside.

Then,I have done my work,

Enough to say.

Never say never…

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” Just for you…”

For you my sweet darling,

I would do most anything…

Thankyou for loving me,

Allowing me,just to be…

Just for you…

I wish,notling but the best,

You deserve all the rest…

Loving you,is so very easy,

Sweet thing you,clear to see…

Just for you…

Dreams really do come true,

Mine have,it is you…

Words can not discribe,exactly,

What all,you truely mean to me…

Just for you…

All I ask,is for you to be you,

No matter what you do…

I will always try to be here,

Thankyou is not enough,dear…

Just for you…

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” Freedom…”

Freedom of  choice,where it all begins,

Honesty and humility,from deep within…

Being open,to knowledge and wisdom,

Notling is perfect,lessons always to come…

Impressions and illusions,total confusion,

The human journey,reality,is the freedom…

Love won,love lost,is the name of the game,

Always changes,decitions,no one to blame…

To walk alone,no matter the siduation,

Loving life,every second,full of passion…

Thankfull and gratefull,for each new sun,

Looking forward,to tomorrow,number one…

Decades later,still here,always learning,

The fire within,is still strong and burning…

Freedom…

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“Thinking of you…”

There are no words,I can say,

What you truely meant to me.

I think of you every single day,

Thinking of you,sweet memories…

How you made me smile,pure joy,

Longing for what may be or come.

Tender moments,feeling every ploy,

Knowing for you,I was number one…

You maybe gone but not forgotten,

I hold you so dear,forever to my heart.

Thinking of you,so much and often,

You are my darling,wholeness in part…

My secret lover,my very best friend,

You will never be forgotten,darling.

In my heart,soul,to keep,to the very end,

Thinking of you,happiness is what you bring…

It is said,that love may only come once,to you,

So hold it dear,lets be clear,what you decide.

Thinking of you,missing and dreaming too,

I love you,thankyou for all,I can not deny…

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” Every second counts…”

The older I get,the more I realize,

What matters,not seen by the eye…

Each has thier own story and past,

Love won,love lost,not all will last…

So pay attention,my dear friend,

Every second counts,in the very end…

People come and go,that is a fact,

Death and speration,how we react…

Good times and times of sadness,

Life it`s self,we are truely blessed…

Mistakes we all make,it all depends,

To see it was worth it,our memories…

Number one,is to have our good health,

Physical and mental,that is our wealth…

Pay attention,to every second and moment,

Always lessons to be learnt,this is a given…

Do not take anything,anyone for granted,

One second here,next are gone,unwanted…

So smile,every morning and say thankyou,

Every second counts,it matters what you do…

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“Did I forget…”

Sweet darling,you mean so much to me,

Did I forget to tell you,I love you dear.

Did I  forget to remind you,what I really see,

That you make me whole,this is very clear…

Did I forget to say,so happy that you are with me,

Laughter and hugs,warms me,threw and threw.

Money can`t buy what you mean,can`t you see,

Never enough can express.how much I love you…

Did I forget to say thankyou,what all you do for me,

Always you have got my back,good or bad.thankyou.

I will not take you for granted darling,can`t you see,

Sweet dear one of mine,so much you really do…

Did I forget to mention,I love your friendship,

Your gentle and tender heart,totally over wellems me.

Dreams of yesterday,maybe tomorrow,it never quits,

Be still my heart,from exploding with joy,just let it be…

Please sweetheart,to remind me from time to time,

Not to forget why,how come,to see what this truely is.

So thankyou darling,for everything,that you are mine,

Never to forget to love you,even with just a gentle kiss…

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” What truely matters…”

We all need love,told that we count,

A gentle hug,a tender kiss,a warm smile.

Eye`s are our windows,shows what we want,

Telling us so sweetly,to stay for awhile…

We all need be needed,desired for who we are,

To love another,we have to love within,first.

Before we can love honestly,with no scars,

Not enough love nector,to quench the thirst…

To have a loved one to say,you really matter to me,

Secret moments of love,memories that last for ever.

Inner joy and total happiness,as it was meant to be,

What truely matters,so simple,soul to soul,a believer…

We are all the creator`s creations,no one is the same,

Different roads,mountains and valleys,new exploration.

Wiser is better,no matter how we each play the game,

Love is love,what we all desire,so life is a celebration…

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“That`s not me…”

Some say things,simplely that are not true,

What I may have done,or what I may of said.

What I am,what I`m not,out of the blue,

I am very loving,compassionate instead…

Those who really know me,know better,

Jealousy and anger,lives in the other,not me.

When I write my feelings,true to the letter,

A dreamer is a dreamer,lover a lover,clear to see…

Been on a magic carpet ride,flying high and free,

Every road of life,a toll is to be paid,for us all.

Mistakes,I have made a few,open minded,is me,

My heart is full,with no regrets,was always my call…

Believe what you want,I know the truth,that`s not me,

Rather be happy,content with so little,yet so much.

Met so many great sweet beautifull souls,meant to be,

This is me,from the corners of my mind,to all who I touch…

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” Foster Care Blues…”

I got the foster care blues,not sure what to do.

What many take family for granted,wish I could do…

I never really felt I belonged,where they put me.

No one looked like me,this was very clear to see…

I got the foster care blues,not sure what to do.

A hole in my heart,never feeling complete,maybe like you…

Always wondering and dreaming,of what might of been.

Was always made to feel,like I had committed a sin…

I got the foster care blues,not sure what to do.

So why the big secret,about the past,now it is up to you…

Broken family ties,stolen culture,too many tears,all was lost.

It was not only me,the taking of our children,at any cost…

I got the foster care blues,not sure what to do.

Even after all these years later,still feeling blue…

Dreaming of better things to come for tomorrow.

So that I stop feeling so empty,full of loss and sorrow…

I got the foster care blues,not sure what to do.

The trail of tears,is till happening and still does continue…

What a pity,that I will never have the chance,to meet.

My brothers or sisters,father or mother,family is all I seek…

I got the foster care blues,not sure what to do.

Keeping so many secrets,what happen to me and you…

I could take physical and sexual abuse,but mental was the worst.

I was only a small child,did not really deserve this curse…

I got the foster care blues,not sure what to do.

Time has healed alot inside of me,so humble,so thankyou…

Still dreaming of tomorrow and yesterday,even to this day.

My memories are mine,mine alone,this they can`t take away…

I got the foster care blues,not sure what to do…………………….

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“Shattered Dreams…”

Was just a matter of time,I would find the courage and the words,to try to express.

So many questions and given no real answers,I was only a child but still a test…

My shattered dreams,hidden within,seemed like forever,so it seemed.

Now I can speak freely and openly,the time has come,to tell my shattered dreams…

The one thing humans,we all have in commen,is this silent feelings,buryed deep inside.

So much pain and sadness,for such a young child,to endure or try to hide…

Unspeakable siduations,abuse of all kinds,from people we believed,were there to protect us.

Our protectors,teachers and family and friends,people we thought we could trust..

Healing is a journey,not a destination,memories are there,not forgotten,only hidden.

So many perfer to sweep it under the rug,or hide thier dirty secrets,what is not right but forbidden…

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” The Circle of Love…”

It is slowly getting bigger and wider,like a pebble falling into the water.

Ripples of love and effection and healing,bring so much joy and laughter…

Each circle,reaching out farther,so many loving people,nation to nation.

For every child or person saved,is a miracle and appreciated,a celeibration…

The circle of love,begins within,connecting with another,so it grows.

Such warmth and beauty,innocence in it`s purity,this we all know…

I am so happy and gratefull,that the circle of love,lives within me and for always.

Perhaps,touching each of you,deep within,words of love and effection,with what I write or say…

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” Tears of my mind…”

Hidden from sight,try as I might.

The tears of my mind,I try to fight…

So many secrets,buryed deep inside.

Crying softly,out of sight…

My heart feels hollow and so empty.

Crying softly,a tear at a time,yet so plenty…

Silent ears around me,eyes gone blind.

Lost in the confusion,is a matter of time…

These tears are not only mine,also of the past.

Flowing like a river,over flowing,like time,forever last…

Reaching out to no where,only darkness,do I find.

What ever happened,to love and being kind…

Hope someone hears me and see my tears.

Silent no more,praying hard,to lose all my fears…

So many tears,enough to create a river of tears.

Flooding over the people and the land.this is very clear…

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” Be carefull…”

Be carefull,what you say to another,once said,the damage is done.

Be carefull,words cut deep,some scars never heal compleletly,with some…

Be carefull,ignorance isn`t a excuse or can be tolerated,you will have to answer.

Be carefull,it may seem small at first,what you say,but it will grow like a cancer…

Be carefull,humans are not made out of steel,actully are fragile and tender.

Be carefull,the one you hurt may leave you behind,just a reminder…

Be carefull,everyone is watching,some far and some closer,than you may realize.

Be carefull,don`t be so nieve,many can see threw your hurtfull lies…

Be carefull,of even your own thoughts,you can do so much harm,to you and your own health.

Be carefull,thinking you know all and really so little,never achieveing happiness or wealth.

So be careful…

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” The Beauty Within…”

All of us are the creator`s creation,the beauty within.

Each has purpose,reason and worth,love is where it begins…

Search for your hidden talent or gifts,to share with others.

Artist,writer,musician,a leader,a father or a mother…

Destination is only for you to realize,no other is to decide.

Respect given or taken,for each of us to own,simple to abide…

So many gifts are inside,by far number one is love,freely given.

Helping others in need,is so very healing,is the best spiritual decition…

Before we can love another,to love yourself,is so very important and wise.

With no expectation or malice,only creator`s love and wisdom,being our guide…

So when you look into the mirror of life,see the beauty within.

With sweet intentions,makes the heart grow fonder,where it all begins…

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A short  story…Soon will be my 62nd birthday,over 22 years as a professional artist.And have I ever learnt alot along the way,thanks to great friends in the art world and business world.Seems it was all leading to the point where I am now and for that I am truely gratefull.Thankfull for my elders,medicine people who loved me enough,to show me that I had so much courage and passion and love,burning deep inside…To have my health,art,my newest passion,my poems and music!My foundation of my art career,is still solid…”Believe in your dreams…”,they do come true,mine have…thankyou creator…So people,never stop believeing in your dreams too,no matter what age you are,male or female and so on…All My Relations…

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” I Wish…”

I wish,all my dreams would become reality.

That people would love me,just for me…

I wish,the past would of been different,I did not ask for it.

Not feeling sorry for my self,just only trying to forget…

I wish,I had a family like so many others,sharing life together.

Not hateing,for no real reason,to have a father and a mother…

I wish,no child would have to feel this,feeling deep inside.

Afraid of loving,only getting rejection,lonely,with no place to hide…

I wish,I could trust,when you say you love me.

When I said,I loved you,I meant it,wish you could see…

I wish,for a brighter tomorrow and a better year to come.

To enjoy,feel comfort,to be part of,to be as one…

I wish, a pond a star at night,my dreams come true,in the end.

No more pretending,without false hopes,my broken heart mends…

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“No more tomorrows…”

I gave you every chance,waited even for years,still no reply.

You had your  opportunity,and you wasted it,your decition,only you know why…

Those terriable things you said to me and about me,you now have to live with it.

Some may want to believe,but many see threw your hurtfull lies,this is what you do not get…

There are no more tomorrows,this I do not control,nor do I want to.

I had to let you go,in my mind and heart,and forget all about you…

I have learnt how to forgive but not forgotten,this is my god given right.

Still try to remember the positive things I liked,try as I might…

Saying you are sorry now,is way too late,no more tomorrows.

We all have to live with things,we said or done,deal with it,and live with our sorrows…

So many years have gone by,that now I hardly ever think of you any more,fortunitly.

Enjoy what I have,not what I do not,many love me,excepting me for me…

Love is like glass,so fragile,crack or break it,you have to replace it.

I did not want this,but have to except it,this you do not get…

No more tomorrows,the past has faded and gone away,and away it can stay.

Tomorrow is a new day,filled with so many hopes and dreams,what comes what may…

There are those who still believe in me,this is what counts for me.

See the human,a loving person,not the idea of what it should be…

So,no more tomorrows,it is now a thing of the past,your loss,why can`t you see.

Life is to be enjoyed and rewarding,full of laughter and love,as it should be…

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“You touched me…”

The idea of you,takes my breath away.

Your scent of inocence,be as it may…

Never judgeing,playing with my feelings.

Making me feel important,with all that I am dealing…

Understanding my trama and pain,of my past.

Giving me hope that things,can maybe last…

You touched me,like no one ever before.

Helping to over come my fears,wanting more…

Amazeing many times,no words ever need to be said.

The past is the past,only to look ahead…

Ownership and control over another,isn`t reality.

Freedom of self,is the only way to be…

So thankyou dear sweet friend of mine.

What will be will be,it`s only a matter of time…

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“A Warriors Cry…”

It haunts me at night,in my dreams.

So forlorn,crying within it seems…

Ancestors not at peace or at rest.

Floating spirits,drifting in circles from the unrest…

Millions of the dead,speak to us to care.

Like the buffalo,killed only because they were there…

Reminders of the past,not to forget.

A way of life,natural law was set…

History books need to be rewritten,this is true.

So many empty untrue stories,written out of the blue…

Heathens,savages,not spiritual,in the way.

Who were really the savages,that they say…

A warriors cry will never go away.

Teaching us a good way,to heal and pray…

So when you are feeling down and sad.

Remember the ancestors,the genocide,is what they had…

Every morning.noon and night,when I pray.

I ask for support,help from them,to get me threw each day…

So with great humlity and respect,I write these words.

To hear a warriors cry and not forget,what I heard…

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“State of Mind…”

Dreams are good to have,reality is many times not the same.

Always thinking we have command,playing the imaginary game…

Love and relationship is a game of chance,taking risks of heart and mind.

Some times works,some times not,testing the matter of time…

Hiding behind so many siduations,we all want to believe all is well.

Smileing on the out side,crying inside,hopeing no one can tell…

Secrets abound,hidden deep inside,trying to exsist,making compensation.

Staying positive as we can,to reach our needs and distination…

Denial is a dangerous game to play,fooling only our sleves,maybe some.

With luck,a handfull of people,in a life time,love us for us,what we have achieved and done…

Money can only do so much,nice to have and we all need.

Notling good comes in the end,if mis-used with ego and greed…

So the question is,what it is,the state of mind,does it exsist.

An illusion,fantasy,a dream,reality or myth…

The real questions and answers,lye within,each person to decide.

To make happen and to realize,our state of mind,buryed deep inside…

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“Secrets…”

All of us have them,some good,some not,some scary,some erotically hot.

Some very personal,some are to be kept silent,some to remember,some to forgot…

Some bring shame,some bring erotic bliss,secrets we all have,this we know.

Some keep us hidden,some full of guilt,some even help us to grow…

Some are meant to stay a secret,no one should ever realize.

Some filled with pleasure,reality with no compromise…

Some should be kept to our sleves and no other need know.

For the fact,they will use to abuse us,the words they throw…

Some close to us break our trust,sadly this is so.

Jealousy,hurtfull,mean,insecure,little do they know…

Hypercrits are abound,pointing fingers and terriable lies.

Hurting not only us,but those we love,hiding behind thier own secrets and disguise…

If I have something to tell you and share.

It is ok,keep your secrets,love yourself and truely care to dare…

Life is to be enjoyed,secrets are always there,every where,no one can hide.

Very few feel safe with to share and confied…

But when this moment is there,allow it,feel safe and free.

Love comes in many forms,but that`s between you and me…

Hopefully my words warm your soul and tender heart.

Not to go away when needed,secrets keep us as one,not apart…

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“Between the lines…”

Many say this and that,what ever fit`s thier needs.

Empty promises and deceit,doing as they please…

Pretty words,thinking we believe everything they say.

Only in our reality,wake up,having to deal and pay…

I am so gratefull for those who really care.

Reading between the lines,feeling respect and love,do I dare…

No one human is perfect and in control.

We all make mistakes,sadly some take thier toll…

But when I say I love you,I really do.

No strings,no drama,meaning what I say too…

Reading between the lines is a gift or maybe not.

Being reminded,every now and then,not all is forgot…

So when you find those special people,dearly hold on.

They are so very rare,not so easy to find,so hold on before they are gone…

Saying notling sometimes is more than enough for me.

The naked eye,is the window to the soul,for us all to see…

Words are only words unless they have meaning and sincerity.

They can kill the human spirit or show us clarity…

So between the lines,I live and breath,in my silence and calmness.

Feeling joy,love,contentment,lust,in truth my passion and total bliss…

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“In My Silence…”

In my solitude,always been this way,even to this day.

There are times when words are not meant to say…

Silent for protection,some times just to think.

To make some think and ponder,my eyes do not blink…

Many times people say and do things that make no reason or sense.

Hurtfull,mean and cruel,emotions far too intense…

So I go deep within my silence and reality of life.

Trying to comprehend,not understanding,try as I might…

Some times when another is angry or jealous and insecure.

I warn them,becarefull when I am silent,it is more than I can endure…

Some times music can take my thoughts,my dreams far away.

To a calmer,peacefull place,only feeling,not hearing what others may say…

When I paint or write,I go deep within my silence and passion.

Like a full lenght movie,imagination,out comes my soul and reaction…

I find many times also that words are not needed in many a siduation.

Actions speak louder than words,a hug,a kiss,touch,much more meaning and appreciation…

Some times my silence comes threw the twingle in my eyes.

Whether understood or not,does not matter,to me,myself and I…

In my silence,brings me so much inner joy and is where I perfer to be.

Where I do not have to act or play the silly games,only just be me…

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“Wheels of Change…”

Around and around they go,it never seems to change.

From moment to another,day by day,it is never the same…

People come and go,this we know,a few stay,close to our heart.

Over the years,old memories are there and not forgot…

Time,siduations,death,relationships,good or bad,change.

Be still my heart,it is what it is,I can not tame…

I am who I am,a free bird,a free thinker,unchained.

Where notling ever remains the same…

A day at a time,it is said,for me it is second by second.

Every change is exciting and filled with contentment…

I beat all the odds,they say,I am still here.

The wheel of change,I hold near and dear…

I wrote this not only for myself but for all of you.

Change for each of us,is our right,natural law,to choose and do…

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“Free Spirit…”

Some things seem to change,many always remain the same.

Status quo,do as I say,is the name of the game…

There is a price to pay to be who you really are.

Free thinker,a doer,free spirit,when one dares…

For many,fear is thier worst enemy and foe.

never allowing them sleves,to learn and grow…

For me,the price is too high,not to be this way.

To be quiet,silent,to do as they say…

Freedom of choice,free will,make decitions that bring me comfort and contentment.

Who loves me,who I love,what brings me joy and excitement…

Jealousy,anger,resentment are reactions that we must pay.

Some times alone,some times not,some times during the night,some times the day…

But,in my silent times refecting the past,today,what may be tomorrow.

My passion begins to grow deep inside,no longer feeling pain or sorrow…

Enjoying everything in life that brings a smile to my face,so much pleasure.

To have lived this long,where many do not,what a gift and a treasure…

The decition is ours and ours alone to make.

To decide what we desire,leave alone or take…

Thats the great gift of being a free spirit,flying free.

To learn,grow,make mistakes,laugh,cry,feel joy,to see what we can see…

Reincarnation is reality,weither you believe or not.

What you recieve in this life,the past,the future,many have forgot…

Do as you will,not for me to decide or to make judgements.

Find your own way,I remain in the light,in my silence…

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“Come fly with me”…

Since I was a small child I flew even then in my imagination and mind.

Never content with what I felt or saw around me of any kind…

I would be flying high around the Europe any where but where I was.

As a artist traveling all around loveing and enjoying my life my cause…

Tried a few things along the way but most wasn`t really for me.

Playing the game of life good bad and dangerous to see what I could see…

I walk to a beat of a different drum which works better for me myself and  I.

Flying high above the clouds like a eagle in the bright blue sky…

Freedom of choice disallowed always what others wanted me to be.

Broken hearts lonely times not joy fullfillment and glee…

Asked a few to come and fly with me but none could fly that high.

So many hopes and dreams of yesterday were only meant to die…

But flying high is where I am happiest and feel totally free.

Where I appreciate every human being animal flower and tree…

I put not restrictions on you so you don`t  me please.

For you or anyone else never will I be on my knees…

I offer only love with no strings attached this is my word in stone.

My time is now to be in my solitude inner peace and not alone…

The time will come this I know it is so to go to the other side.

So for now I will freely compleletly let my creator be my guide…

-Flying free,flying high…come fly with me-

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Heyoka Blues…

Every day is a surprise,Teaseing all who come in my way.Some are afraid and some realize,Heyoka Blues I have every day…So many stories untold and unread,Hidden truths so many lies.Many would rathe run away instead,Reality hurts and rather denie…I rather show them who they are,To joke and laugh at them sleves dayly.To let go and heal all those unhealed scars,Heyoka Blues truth or dare…Love not knowing what`s a round the next corner,To help a soul in sadness and pain.Show them the light not later but sooner,Show them there is notling to lose but to gain…Many see the twinkle in my eyes and smile,Some really love me or fear me.Temptation is powerfull why not stay awhile,Joy passionlaughter so much to feel and see…Heyoka Blues I got it bad,Notling better as far as I can see.Always excited happy never sad.Heyoka Blues all I can say is yippee…………………………..dedicated to all who understand…

 

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“Friends…”  Some come and go,this I can not control,all I feel is what I know…Real friends are there for me,they care and it is clear to see…Pick me up when I fall,come and comfort me when I call…Hold me and wipe my tears away,never have to fear,knowing they will stay…They make me laugh and smile,feel thier love and warmth inside,you are my bright light,my guide…Some friends come and go,this is so…You stayed,love ya for that,thankyou…Like me with you…

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” Your Kiss…”

There are moments from time to time.When I remember your tender touch.Your hand gentlely carressing my face.Comforting me when I needed it most…

But mostly I miss your tender,loving kiss.

Listening to my deepest thoughts and fears.Never judgeing me,putting me down.Warm hugs,holding me so very near…

But mostly I miss your tender,loving kiss.

Your eyes saw threw me,touching my soul.Your smile warmed my heart.You knew but told no one,thankyou…

But mostly I miss your tender,loving kiss.

Your love was with no strings attached.You were my safe place.Your love can never be matched…But mostly I miss your tender,loveing kiss…

Dedicated to my mother Nora,I miss you…

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“Windows to your soul…” When ever you are near me…I look into your eyes so dear…I feel your energy,so well and clear…Like a breath of fresh air…I come closer to you,do I dare…My heart skips a beat or two…Only because of the beauty,I see within you…I wonder,if you can see what I can see…My thoughts are only sincere…When I go to sleep tonight,I will see your eyes…As I drift off to who knows where…who cares…You make me smile when I need it most…Even with out your touch…Do I really feel so much…My eyes are also my windows to my soul…Who I am trying to be…Let`s go on a adventure and see what we can see…The past is the past…Let`s make this last…What a silly romantic fool am I…But still I want to cry my tears away…Dreaming of another tomorrow…What comes what may…The windows of our souls…

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Our Mother weeps-Not even after 500 years of greed and rapeing her can they get enough,mineing,lumber but oil is the greatest illness of man kind…I can speak that here in Canada,they have gone to oil crazy and now to madness…The planet and the land and water as we once knew it,is a thing of the past.The ice is melting,our water source is in great danger…she is crying and has been for decades but the greedy turn a blind eye.We all have only ourselves to blame and we wonder why our children are not happy and do not respect adults,leadership(s).Good thing is people are waking up,not only within Canada but threwout the world…and what many people do not realize that she,Mother Earth will heal herself,with our help or not…she weeps for us…aho

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A story…When I was a young child,I had many learning problems,stuttering badly,dilexic,tramma issues,being a native in a non-native community.And as we all know children can be very cruel,espeically when they have bad teachers…Anyways,I grew up a very angry,non-trusting and had very low self esteme.I also took this well into my adulthood and was not untill I really started my healing/learning/spiritual journey…going to the Elders and care givers and finally addressing all my secrets,anger,pain,sence of loss and letting go,once and for all,my past.For over 21 years in my art career,I have taught thousands of children,in Canada and threw out Europe and spoke about this…well,to my surprise,I was very amazed how many children today,suffer from learning problems!By turning a negitive siduation into a positive teaching tool.With my work I helped alot of kids(adults as well).One of the best teaching I use was this,I would ask the children and teachers;”Please point your finger at me,so they did” I then went on and said;”Remember the next time you are pointing fingers at others,teaseing them how they look,color of skin,weight problems or culture,etc etc.Remember that you have three fingers pointing back at yourself  “.I then said,”So maybe it is you that has the problem…?”All the children would smile and I saw the light go off in thier heads…I also told them that we we do this to others,it can take a life time for many,to over come and heal,this pain…

Silent No More…

Do you hear my voice,
Silent no more…
The Ancestors are smiling,
Silent no more…
Mother Earth, do you hear me,
Silent no more…

(singing and drumming)
Trail of Tears, no more,
Silent no more,
No more lies, only truth,
Silent no more…
With love in our hearts, we speak,
Silent no more…

(singing and drumming)
The Elders will lead the way.
Silent no more…
We now become one nation,
Silent no more…
The eagle flys strong and high,
Silent no more….

(singing and drumming)
The sacred hoop is growing and alive,
Silent no more…
Hear the messages in the wind,
Silent no more…
Hear the drum, heartbeat of Mother Earth,
Silent no more…

(singing and drumming)
Dedicated to the lost generations…

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Impressions

Now that I am 60 years old, amazed that I am still here, I often find myself in my silence…reflecting. Remembering all the special people and moments and the impressions they made and the impact that they left, decades of memories. It really warms my heart and soul when I really think and see what really happened, life changing!
We all have our own stories, I am no different. When I was only a child, I saw and felt everything around me, good and bad or positive or negative. Making decisions, whether I wanted to or not. Some were not in my best interests but a matter of survival in my eyes…Remembering the older ones mostly, who I would sit and have tea with and talk for hours upon hours. The impressions they made to me, they listened. In the 1950`s being native was not a easy thing. So they were important to me, certain teachers, childhood friends but to be honest, being alone or with animals, I felt the safest.

As I got older, I found more safety on the streets, at least I knew what to expect and found many other wounded souls such as myself. It brought me comfort actually, people who understood me, many times never having to explain…I thank my creator almost daily now, that that I never got aids, Hep C, shot or stabbed or felt suicide was my way out. Later my Elders would teach me, why I am still here and to be grateful and humble of this fact. A few times, what I thought I believed, the foundations came crumbling down, only afterwards, understanding that I was going threw another transformation, to begin a new journey.

The impressions, no matter what form they came in…I hold dear to my heart. Finally I have found inner peace, love, calmness and I can only be thankful for all the impressions I have experienced. Plus excited for all the new ones, yet to come. My art, traditional culture such as music, dance, spiritual healing, commitment, passion, appreciating my gifts the creator has given me.

Now here I am, on my Golden Years part of my human journey…wondering…what impressions will I leave behind………………………………………..

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Baby Steps

My Elders told me,
go slowly and be gentle.
Take my time,
Begin to walk the Red Road.
Listen to all,
Mother Earth and the ancestors.
Baby steps my child,
You are loved.
Fly with the eagle,
Way up above.
Baby Steps…

The journey is yours,
To have and to hold to your heart.
Letting go,
All, that will set you apart.
To feel love again,
Healing is a beautiful journey.
The womb of Mother Earth,

Baby steps my child,
You are loved.
Fly with the eagle,
Way up above.
Baby steps…

Go you own speed,
Listen to you spirit and helpers.
Walk slowly,
Do not be afraid or worry.
Walk the road,
To freedom and your glory.

Baby steps my child,
You are loved.
Fly with the eagle,
Way up above.
Baby steps…

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Going Home…

Dedicated to our leaders that have passed….
My heart is heavy,
My tears are real.
Lost another one,
And have to deal.
Our warriors are strong,
Many moons today.
Our ancestors fly high,
Wisdom keepers, they say.
I will remember you,
And pay my respect.
Listen and feel your wisdom,
Being humble, not to expect.
Now is your time,
To go home…
I pray for you,
And leave you alone.
To walk amongst the ancestors,
The destination…
Respectfully, I say…
Aho, all my relations…

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Giver of Life…

Thank you for Mother Earth,
For the life force, that she gives to us all.
Thank you for our women,
Who help bring us all into this world.
She hold me to make me feel safe,
Thank you for showing me, my way,
For making me laugh,
And drying my tears away for another day.
Thank you for your inner strength, we men have in another way,
To catch me before I hit the ground or more.
And remind me who I really am and can be,
For the ancestors to watch and see.
Seeing that you are a great teacher of life, for our family,
So we grow up strong and free to think and find happiness.
I remember feeling your deep love for me when I feel blue,
It helps me to overcome and to remember too.
You are my mother, my guide, my giver if life,
Thank you for this, my mother so dear and sweet…
One day, we will meet again, this I know for sure,
In the spirit world or reincarnation, a world so pure.
So, now all know now how I feel about you, this is clear,
To my mother, my life giver, you to me are so dear.
(dedicated to my mother Nora Poitras)

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The Mirror

For many years I did not want to look into it.
Knowing what I would see, I would not forget.
Mirror`s of my mind and soul that bared.
My truth for me to see and all who cared.
Sometimes, I saw good and joy and excitement.
Feeling safe and hide with in my thoughts and contentment.
Expecting nothing from no one and did not care.
Going full force in my madness, seeing who would dare.
The mirror is a beautiful window of denial or reality.
What may of been or what of might of been the key.
For it is only for each of us, good or bad.
What makes us excited and happy or depressed and sad.
The mirror tells the truth within us all.
Anger, jealousy, envy or how high is our wall.
Reality always is the end result, like it or not.
So get use to it, to make sure we have not forgot.
Mirror mirror on the wall…

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The Hole in My Heart

As the years pass by and the older I get, I try to be as honest to myself and not to forget.
Not to feel sorry for myself or live with regret, what was, was, and to honour my past and who ever I met.
I would tell the people who tried to love me, that life and what happened was clear to see.
Some understood it, others could not let it be.
Mostly I am positive person, who lives with his past.
But fail from time to time, to hide it all, in all it`s mass.
But I am also a human, who needs to be needed, appreciated, accepted and allowed to fly, freely and unheeded.
I would give the same in return to all or try.
To laugh out loud and to even a good cry.
There is a hole in my heart, I did not make it myself, this I know.
People did this, life did this, many understand and hopefully I will grow.
I am full of passion and an inner peace and now love me.
It is there for who want to feel and see.
The hole is getting smaller and smaller as each day goes by.
I am now flying like a eagle, high about in the sky.
I thank the Creator and my ancestors, for showing me there is love.
Just walk slowly and to be careful, walk upon Mother Earth and pray to the creator above…

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Thoughts May 3rd, 2012

I am a human being, I am Hehaka-to-hoksina and because of my culture, mostly my Elders, I am learning…I was a foster child, all who know me, know this. For many years, I felt lost, not knowing, wondering…why, how come I feel this way. It was not until I starting to go the Elders, not realizing, asking, why I was doing this (it was already inside of me). For years, the beautiful Elders, men and women who I made contact with, they took me under their wings, they say…I was ready. What I soon began to appreciate, how I was being treated, with only love and patience, compassion. They helped me to understand, who I was, why I was…to feel proud of my blood, where I came from…the line, to my ancestors. When I fell down on my journey, they allowed to me get up on my own, my speed, never making me feel ashamed, like I was lazy or stupid. I was showed the medicine wheel and what little I saw, I realized, this was what I was looking for. I saw only the purity of the teachings and just how little I really knew…he he. This why I now pray every morning, throughout the day, to ask for the wisdom, I need this day, to heal and let go. To be human and laugh at myself when I make a mistake and hopefully to learn and grow from this mistake…welcome to the human race…the jokes on me! It is said through traditional teachings, thousands of years of storytelling and teachings to find our own way. We are all children of Mother Earth, we all belong, we are all important. This is why I try to pray to the creator, spirits every day. I am now in my Golden Years and grateful to be on my journey, to try to become the best human being I can. When the creator and takes me, I will have a smile on my face, because, I am slowly beginning to understand, why, who I am…I am Hehaka-to-hoksina, Elk Blue Boy…Jim Poitras, just a human being, having a human experience…enjoying the journey, more and more…we all deserve this gift, of life…All My Relations

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The Fire Within

The flame was lite when I was young
Something woke up and all begone
It felt better than what was around me
All I felt was the love of life and I knew I had to see
It kept me alive through so much of my youth
And into my teens, like getting baby teeth or just one new tooth
When I was feeling all alone or feeling lost
I felt that fire and fought for it, at all cost
To explain exactly what this is
Only we, as a human being can say, it is bliss
The fire with in us all, we have and own
To choose who we love or who loves us, that is written in stone
Here I am now in my Golden Years, appreciating it all
Listen for the eagle, to hear it`s call
To follow my heart and to enjoy and grow
Who ever comes, to love the man and the little boy
No matter if you are a man or woman or rich or poor
It is ours, to have, to hold, to ask, to have a bit more
That the fire within us all is bright and strong
To realize it all, before it is gone…

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Will You Remember

Will you remember the laughter and joy
Will you remember the tears and fear
Will you remember my courage and strength
Will you remember my laughing at my silly jokes
Will you remember
I will remember you
Will you remember loving me for me
Will you remember, to let it be
Will you remember feeling safe
Will you remember to be free
I will remember you
Will you remember me

 

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Memories

When I was small all I felt was fear
I was too little to see it clear
All, I knew I did not belong
Memories fading till most were all gone
Any child who has seen what I have seen
Any child who been where I have been
Girl or boy, this makes no judgments
Memories that were a daze, with no contentment
We all take this into our adulthoods
Whether we think it or we should
Torn childhood dreams
Memories, that never seemed
To be loved is all I wanted
Needed, treated tenderly, not to be haunted
Remember, when you see it with your own eyes
Do not turn your head and just pass it by
Children are our greatest gifts of life
Memories, we all have memories, we all should have a happy life.

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