Living with dyslexica,stuttering,A.D.S

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I have lived with learning problems,since I was a very small child.Being dyslexic,reading,writing,speaking new languages,understanding forms etc,was/is very difficult for me.I was also a very bad stutterer and suffered from ADS.But in these days in the 1950`s-60`s,educators and people who worked in the social system,did not know or understood these siduations,hundreds of thousands of children and adults alike suffered in silence.I was told when I was a small child,I was lazy,stupid and even retarted.So grew up very angry and mistrustfull of anyone who talked to me,in this way…I was made to feel ashamed,guilty but deep down inside,knew I was highy intelligent and gifted.I kept this a secret from everyone untill I started my art career,working in schools with children and began to use it as a teaching tool…

“Living with dyslexica…”

All I say to you is,give me a chance,time to learn

I am only dyslexic,so please,respect I will earn…

I am not lazy,stupid or retarded,I am very intelligent

Just dyslexic,with learning problems,understatement…

It may take me longer,but I always process everything

To make sence,show you I do understand,is not a sin…

I just live with being dyslexic,in a state of confusion

But always figure it out,in the end,it is my intention…

Education is the key,communcation,for you and me

Living with dyslexica,all it is,understanding,my reality…

In the past year or so,is when I met Kathleen Zimmermann,is a dyslexic teacher here in Germany.I was very interested in  what information she could teach me.One day I was sitting and talking with her and another friend,she simplely asked me;”Jim,when you read…do your read the line or do you bounce from line to line?”My first reaction was,I read by line…then I re-thought and realized,that I bounce from line to line,I always have and still do,to this day! Then it hit me…here I am 63,soon to be 64 years old and NO ONE had ever asked me this question before…it over wellemed me…She saw that I am what you call a “hard dyslexic” also…After thinking about this,it made me realize my own behaviour patterns.How I reacted to someone who is yelling or who tried to explain siduations in mutli layers,different reasons,it only confused me.My brain can not except this…I respect Kathleen for her work,it has opened up my eyes and mind,to handle my dyslexica better…www.lernen-mit-kathleen.de

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I will develop this page more,with information and realized that learning problems are not addressed well enough within the educational system,as we know it…Education is the key…

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Threwout my whole art career,I worked as a intercultural teacher,telling our stories that were told to me.I also spoke alot of my own personal journey,growing up in another culture,being dyslexic,learning problems.Every school,museum,I worked at,I would tell the children,I was dyslexic,and many children would raise thier hands and tell me;” Jim,I have this too…!!!” Many teachers,educators would be shocked and never realized so many children suffered with this learning problem…I would later talk to the teachers and just share with them of this social problem,that really is not addressed within the education system.Dyslexic children/adults are far from being ignorant,actully just the opposite!Many are very talented in the arts,such as art,music,dance and highly intelligent!Many very famous people of the past and today,are dyslexic as well,just google it and find out for yourself…Being dyslexic is a 24/7,7 days a week,365 day,work in process.One must never get lazy or forgetfull,to continue working on the inner ballance.Within your mind,emotional level,age and time are part of the journey,always in a process.Self worth and self esteme are key,understanding you are improtant and have alot to offer others…Threwout my career,I have always said…”education is the key”…

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When I was a very young child,I was in foster care and stuttered very badly.Let alone learning a new language,english…One day,I was around four or five years old and my foster mother was cooking at the wood burning stove,she was a sweet woman.I was trying to tell her something but I was stuttering so bad,she could not understand me.She calmly told me;”Jimmy,if you want to speak to me,please speak slowly…” Well…that moment of time,stays in my mind to today.It was the first time,I felt a human being actully cared what I had to say and at the same time,it felt very loving to me.So,I slowly self taught myself how to speak slower and my stuttering slowly got better…But even today when I get excited,I stutter.When I was living in Brtish Columbia years ago,I was on a airplane flying from Calgary to Vancouver.I was seated by a man,Tony Intas and we got to talking,a really nice man.He was a stutter but I felt comfortable talking with him,just the same,as I am a sutterer.We became great friends.He worked with The British Coumbia Stuttering Asso. and I even did workshops at thier summer camp,with my fellow people who stutter.It was a perfect match…Left Tony and me,right a group photo…”Education is the key…”

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A.D.S. acohol-drug-sindrone,is a world wide problem…It not only comes from proverty and covers all races,poor or rich! My personal history of my blood lines has reasons,not excuses…why…Residential school,60`s Scoop,the apprehention of our children,for many many decades.Also sexual,mental,physical abuse,those who come out of war zones,recent or not.Within much a societies,it is a deep secret of shame,guilt and no amount of money can really hide it.Relationships are distroyed,families and communities,even for a nation.It will take decades to fix and heal the people,relationships,families and communties and it all really starts at the top…the leaders,governments,to do the right thing.Suicide,sadly is a world wide problem,with our youth and adults alike.When this secret is kept a secret…I put no blame on my parents,my mother,she had no decition what happened to her and she payed a very high price…the worse thing that can happen to any mother,is to have her children taken away from her! She was my mother,who brought me into this world and I will love and respect her,till the day,I die! Point for me is this…A.D.S. is a huge problem for all and really needs to be addressed,threwout the education system…Luckly we have many good hearted people,who work for the people but it is not enough…This has personaly effected my life and again I say; “Education is the key…”

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With these three different life siduations,that I personaly have had to deal with…lets just say,life at times was difficult.It took me decades,even till today,to truely understand it all…why…But in my culture,we still have spiritual elders,teachers,healers,men and women,who took me under thier wings,as we say.Shared thier wisdom,knowledge but mostly love and compassion with me.I had to understand what the teachings meant to me.Later it helped me to be able to work with children,adults and in communities,shareing the stories told me.As mentioned,with these three major health issues,once I turely began to understand it,why…I could perhaps support others going threw it,themsleves,just be a good friend,who cares…In my art career,I have painted a number of art pieces that have been used in the healing,educational programs…The fall out of not doing enough is…substance abuse,suicide,violence,loneiness,suicide,anger,mistrust,depression…low self esteme.Body language,eyes are the windows to the soul,a persons behaviour,is easy to see…because I experiance it all and have compassion,for all those in need…Everyday people,greatest wish,is only desire exceptance,compassion,understanding but mostly love…Education is key…All My Relations…

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When a child,woman or man who is dyslexic,this never leaves…it is a life long journey,living with dyslexia.In my work,in schools,festivals,museums,I always use myself as an example.Here I am in my 60`s,living with dyslexica…I had to self teach myself,how to live in harmony,with myself and others around me…In a world who did not understand me…It is not a illness,it about learning problems,like reading,writing,understanding structure,like computors etc.I am a processor,all dyslexic people will totally understand what I just said,we process  EVERYTHING…As a writer/poet,I have to proof read,a number of times all I write but I understand,this is what I need to do,being and living with dyslexica…But when one learns to live with being dyslexic,they can deal and handle most life siduations better,on thier speed…Because so many children and adults suffer with the stereotype`s,uneducated views,what others,think it is….Many people who suffere with this life siduation,many keep it a secret…a secret of shame,guilt and to live in fear how others proceed them.Most,if not all dyslexic people are highly gifted,in the arts and many other levels,such as business,becoming some of the wealthiest sound business people on the planet.Education is the key…the foundation of my career,as a intercultural teacher…showing all,we have more similairities than differences…understanding the differences is the key…All My Relations…

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